Saturday, December 17, 2005

Back home

Here i am after nearly four and a half months...sitting in my dads office. Blogging my way to glory. 15 more days free from all academic burdens.(not that i had that many in BITS.) what am i going to do these days? read...blog..chat and catch up with a lot of old friends. I also want to write my first novel. A tiny idea has been in my heart for a long time. I really want to develop on it and come out with a good novel.. I just hope i dont have my writers block again.

Friday, December 09, 2005

The Loss

With a heart full of hopes
and a mind filled with wisdom,
A prize i sought-
A prize,precious but common
A prize-beautiful
for once also useful
A prize id treasure
more than my existence
A prize that would guard me
now and forever.
A prize,my pride assured,
I'd easily get.

Like a being possessed,
towards it i went..
Moving like a zombie
Losing my soul,
Losing relationships
Friends few i quickly lost.
Did I?
I know not till now....

At last my moment came
to claim my prize dear
Oh! success was too near.
Reached i forward
to hold it in my hands.
My effort to grab,
Oh! in vain
Down i fell
down real down...
Trodden upon by legs too many
scorned at by hearts too many

With my heart
crumbling to pieces
Try i do to stand
Simply to stand and stare..
The effort killing me
My elixir dear
all the while near
casting me away from the pain
moving away the carcasses
of a broken me
Moulding the broken pieces
into a being new...

Love i do this elixir too
The elixir of compassion and hope
gives me a life anew

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Have a writers block

Here i am stuck for words...just staring into space...wondering where all my inspiration has disappeared.
Ages since i penned down a poem.That is too much esp for a person who used to burst into poetry just like that.Is it the system of examinations' victory over creativity? Was i too engrossed in preparing that i lost my creativity? But wasnt it the same system which inspired many of my poems? Oh! What a loss it will be! The loss of creativity... Someone save me..Please.

Death

Wilted flowers, I have often
seen in numerous gardens.
I have passed through graveyards
and watched them disappear
through a corner window.

Death, I said
was as real as life.
Death, I felt,
was as important as life.
Death- just a journey
to an unknown land.

Time-can easily heal wounds.

Today, I stand unable to accept
and acknowledge your loss
Death- no longer seems to be real
or to be a journey.

Death, now is the cruel monster
that took you away from me..
that stole the laughter from my lips
and the sparkle from my eyes
and the very happiness from my soul.

With all my heart, I want you back
just to say at least a goodbye.
I want you to hold me and tell me
that you will always be there for me.
Life today has lost its meaning.
The only thing I want
is to see you walk past me.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Relationships

Over months and years,
learnt i have this lesson true...
Nothing lasts forever
this includes relationships too.

In they come,
shower their love,
boost your confidence
share real joy,
give loads of happiness...

Somehow...
they easily disappear
in the storms of time....

It lashes out
with all its fury
either early or a bit late..
sometimes fate
is lenient
and it never comes
any date.

Ravaged you stand,
woe begone
thinking you are
now all alone
in a zone
of hopeless solitude.

Decide you do
with a vigour too
that nothing is anyday true..

But....
Watch you transfixed,
as love flows in
and glues together
the broken pieces
of your heart...

Somehow i feel
love,like energy,
can never be destroyed.
Flows it does
from one form to another.
Lasts it does
forever.

Befriend you may
your enemy
of yester year..
Hate with all your heart
your friend
once too dear.

There will always
be someone near
to forever cheer
and help you hear
words of confidence
echoing in the depths
of your soul....

Nailed it is
to your body
by just simple love.

Soul-less you become,
the moment you forget
how to love
for
lose you will
your will to live

Days will go on..
just on and on
sans joy
sans a smile,
or a tear
and a word of cheer

Difficult it is
to anyday let go...
but care anyway

Difficult it is to recover
but allow your emotions to flower.

For anyone that goes,
someone else comes in..
and life just goes
on and on and on.....

The long wait

Like a lightning..
it stuck out…

Easily it did..
wipe away memories real sweet..

Times of sorrow,joy and happiness,
near me u stood..
the loving hand never far away.

A moment of anger,
out came words,
somehow dear friend,
they left a scar in the depths of our souls.

All broken devastated
i stood all alone..
wanting a simple smile
a tiny hint telling me,
everything was ok…

Never did it ever come….
Stood I waiting
and waiting..

A heavy heart,
brought me down..
With a thud
I fell
and lay there..

No one near to care..
This sorrow-
I couldn’t bear
Real affection I guess
is real rare..

In my eye there is
many a tear…

A sudden explosion
sent tiny pieces of my heart
Flying around
everywhere..
No use searching for
the broken pieces..
For lost they are
in the waves of time..

Wait I still
for that tiny hint..
Telling me
everything is just the way
It always was…
Wait I will
even for an eternity
Just for that tiny smile
and the minute
nod of your head