Friday, December 22, 2006

Holidays at last

Here i am once again..enjoying my holidays.. probably for one of the last times. I have been home for the past 5 days. I have successfully watched some 3 movies.. none too impressive. 'Veyil' was actually decent. The age old story of mans need to be accepted by people around. Most of all, by his own father. He ultimately ends up sacrificing his life. That is something i dont get. I mean, even i want to be accepted by everyone but i dont go about giving up my life for that. Do I? So many movies and books talk about people like that. Living for others. I detest such people actually. Live for yourself first. Then bother about those around you. Even in this movie, the man sits around cribbing as to how no one accepts him. How can they? When all he can do is crib?Rather than running around with a knife and killing all the enemies, had he gotten himself a job and acted like a man, half the problem wouldnt have started. Well, I have written something after a long time. Guess i can start commenting on movies from now on. It would be fun too!!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Scary week

Well i shouldnt actually be blogging now. I should be sitting with my book and learning all designs and stuff. I have a very scary week ahead starting with a test morrow. Its my favorite subject and i have absolutely no clue as to how to set about scoring in this test. Come monday and my long pending LOP(Lab Oriented Project) has to be started. Another test on tuesday--production techniques. Then comes advanced mechanics of solids and my viva on PROE. In the middle i have to meet my prof and give my viva for transport phenomenon. Oh God. If i survive this week, i really have something to celebrate. In Johny mnemonic, Keanu reeves increases his brain capacity to 320 GB. Do i want to do that!!
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Friday, November 03, 2006

Solitude

Down the lane, she walked

In the midst of a huge crowd

Faces, faces and faces everywhere

All around they crowded

Laughing, talking, angry faces

Crushing her from all sides

Unaware of everything

she just walked,

like a zombie

emotions dead… long ago

Walking with memories…

Of days long gone…

Days filled with laughter,

joy and life…

days when she ruled

when praise abounded

when life was livable.

Somehow, she felt,

she had lived only then.

Now she existed…

mindless of life around,

mindless of hateful scorns,

mindless of practicalities,

just not forgetting

to breathe

painfully aware, only of…

her solitude.

Nostalgia

I was just glancing through my old diary..found few poems i'd written.I've grown over these six years..I thought I'd blog them.comments are welcome.

The lonely star

Everything is dark in the sky
With no birds to fly..
There's no one near me
to feel and see and experience
the magic.
The moon playing
hide and seek
with me.
This cloud now
and then that..
I notice a star
just too far
Neither can i reach out
nor can it hear my shout
of welcome and joy..
Very bright,
yet isolated..
It taught me a lesson today
Alone you may be
But shine on
Many a lonely heart
can seek solace in your light...


A broken wing

There in the high sky,
I saw a bird fly..
I forgot to cry
It gave me courage to try.
Its wings were broken
but nots its spirits
Where am I?
I mourn over disappointments
I forget I'm important
The bird,taught me a lesson..
My burdens did lessen.
Life, is not permanent..
one must concentrate on improvement
there comes happiness
then disappears--
all weakness
I forgot worries
My face did shine..
Oh! my little bird..
Ill worship you..
in my shrine..

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Attendance

Here i am,in BITS.Tests,tests and tests everyday. Just finished advanced mechanics of solids. Now Design is staring at me. I have to go and do something about the course. Have my carefully copied class notes by my side. Attending classes is not compulsory here .Is it a boon or bane?I dunno. Half of us dont know whats going on in the classes. I sleep most of the days and conveniently forget the existence of the institute . Or i gen freak out . I was in a frenzy of note copying last week. Just finished my bit yesterday.Was up till 2 last night. Promised myself that id attend all classes today. Happily slept till 12 thanks to my tiny night out! I dunno wheter to laugh or cry.One more notes copying session today!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Random thoughts

The last fifteen days have been damn crazy. Exams..exams and exams.Now everything is over..I am just looking back...Today afternoon,i realised that its been ages since I wrote down what i felt. Empty pages in my diary stood testimonial to this fact. My mind is so crowded with thoughts.. I just dunno which ones to pen down.. Going home for a vacation..But i can hardly call it so.My Practice School 1 will keep me on my toes... I am looking forward to my PS-1(something which every BITSian has to undergo in his second yr holidays) But I do have my doubts about it.Will i learn somthing useful there??I wanted to work in a mechanical company..i got my wish...But,is it going to be worth the numerous hours of travel??Maybe i should have just opted for madurai...atleast,I could have spent quality time with my sis...Getting to the Integral Coach factory by seven everyday is going to be a big problem too..Maybe this hols would make me an early bird...
I dont want to change..to anything or to anybody. I just dont want to change myself in order to be accepted by few fools. A recent incident further convinced me that i am better off as myself. Am going to remain this way...and update my blog often...

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Resolutions...

It seems kinda late to take resolutions....but...as they say, better late than never...
Coming to the resolutions part. I usually dont read newspapers..my general knowledge is a huge zero...i once used to say(well...once here implies just a week ago!!),"Anyway things and people are gonna change...why go out of the way to know about stuff???"
Recently i felt i was just wasting my time away in this huge world... Not knowing anything about it..So here i sit...opening hinduonnet side by side... Have no idea as to how long this resolutions gonna last... To read news headlines....well...well..i have bcum crazy.
As for the other ones,i guess i cant reveal them all so soon as i do have to think of the side effects....One crazy one is to attend classes regularly..Even if it is at 8 in the morning...so i've been out in this freezing cold...(it was -2 here 2 days ago) attending classes...classes where in this unique college no attendance is taken..
God save Harini from herself.......