Monday, August 31, 2009

My current favorite

Yeh dooriyan
Yeh dooriyan
Yeh dooriyan

In raahon ki dooriyan
Nigahon ki dooriyan
Hum rahon ki dooriyan
Fanah ho sabhi dooriyan

Kyun koi paas hai
Door hai Kyun koi
Jaane Na koi yahan pe

Aa Raha paas ya door mein ja raha
Janu na mein hoon kahan pe

Yeh dooriyan

In raahon ki dooriyan
Nigahon ki dooriyan
Hum rahon ki dooriyan
Fanah ho sabhi
Yeh dooriyan
Yeh dooriyan


Kabhi hua yeh bhi
Khali Rahon pe bhi
Tu tha mere saath

Kabhi tujhe milke lauta
mera dil yeh khali khali haath
Yeh bhi hua kabhi
Jaise hua Aabhi
Tujhko sabhi mein paa li

Tera mujhe kar jaati hai dooriyan
Satati hain dooriyan
Tarsati hain dooriyan
Fanah ho sabhi dooriyan


Kaha bhi na mene
Nahi jeena mene
Tu jo na mila

Tujhe bhule se bhi na
Bola na mene chahun fasla

Bas fasla rahein
Ban ke kasak jo kahen
Ho aur chahat yeh aur
Teri meri mit jaani hai dooriyan
Begani hai dooriyan

Hat jani dooriyan
Fanah ho sabhi dooriyan


Kyun koi paas hai
Door hai Kyun koi
Jaane Na koi yahan pe

Aa Raha paas ya door mein ja raha
Janu na mein hoon kahan pe

Yeh dooriyan

In raahon ki dooriyan
Nigahon ki dooriyan
Hum rahon ki dooriyan
Fanah ho sabhi dooriyan

Relatively unrelated whys

I dont understand
  • Why men happen to enjoy violence so much
  • Why women seem to love adorning themselves with useless gold
  • Why people want to hoard money for a really distant future without living in the moment
  • Why there are kids going without food and shelter when there are so many who spend thousands in uselessly expensive restaurants ( I am one here too. Sometimes i feel guilty. Come on!)
  • Why we forget that many small things count more than a few big things.
  • Why effectively we dont live and let live
  • Why there are so many lights in weddings when villages go without electricity
  • Why too much is also never enough
  • Why happy isnt enough.
  • Why nothing lasts forever

Sunday, August 30, 2009

First times


A bon fire on Holi night
The temple i used to haunt :D
SKY! Time flies!

I was reminded of a lot of first times today. Met up with my best buddies from college. Recreated the bond that brought us together in the first place. One of the nicest times i have had in some time now with friends. I just thought ill upload a few pics. It so far away now. But then, the memory, remains~!
I lost a lot of the pictures i had taken on campus. I guess its time i took the initiative and got them all back again.

Ignorance

I was thinking about the types of ignorance
  • Ignorance that accepts ignorance and tries to do something about it. That is what is usually called as the eternal student.
  • Ignorance that pretends to accept ignorance and hunts for a supposed subject matter expert and questions the person so much that the SME forgets what he knew in the first place. These are the supposed smart people i was so sick of seeing in college.
  • Ignorance that doesnt know that it is ignorant and pretends to know everything about it. Sigh, another specimen we used to dissect very often in the wing
  • Ignorance that doesnt know that it is ignorant and doesnt even know the topic of its ignorance exists. I hate this type. Especially when it is branded innocent
  • Ignorance that accpets the ignorance and happily lets it be. These are our dear illuminated souls.
Post dedicated to the illuminated souls i met in a deserted village in Rajasthan. :D

Friday, August 28, 2009

Silent criticism and outright feedback

What is worse? Silent criticism or outright feedback?
There are so many people i know with such pent up anger inside them that it just hits you like hot air in the face. There are others who are so god damn vocal with their unnecessary opinion that all i want to do is hurl a basket of burning charcoal down their throat. Yesterday i met someone belonging to the former category. All through our conversation, the silent critic in him/her kept coming out and the words were so full of hatred. Simple words that mean nothing much when read but that which just tear you apart when you hear them uttered with such venom. No I dont regret doing what i did. I just feel bad that things had to end up this way.
And later half of the day I was wishing someone i knew wasn't so vocal on the phone! That's when i got thinking. Which is worse? I really dont know.
Is it better to let some random person be happy by not expressing your anger? Can someone be more important to you than yourself? What is all this nonsense about being polite when you are getting hurt? I dont buy it. I am an icon of self indulgence and i have the maturity to accept that self comes before the rest. For those who claim thats not the case, well, i am sorry i cant help you too much. :D
Or, is it better to express extreme discontent in moments of anger? Words you know for sure would hurt the other person? But words that would give you a temporary relief? And words that you would regret later? Is it better to control your emotion than regret an outburst? Or is it better to never regret an outburst? :D
I am right now pondering over this question.
In my net worth assessment there is a happiness quotient. How happy you can make others be and how much you can make the world a better place to live in. But at what cost is my question. What is the extent to which you can sacrifice? What is the extent to which you should be polite/nice? Self sacrificing idiots could go down in history for being nice. however, is the not so happy past worth the trouble?

My lone ranger

An old photo i chanced upon. Sigh! I wanna go to some lake somewhere and bird watch!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Brilliant. :)

Brilliant forward that darling namita sent me. :)

Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin, tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said:

THIS SUMMER, DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern:

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them not to mention how could they have sex? Therefore they don't have kids either. Not to mention who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.

P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and a coffee with my friends. With time we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, Good gosh, look how smart I am........

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Net worth assessment

How do you estimate a person's net worth? I dont mean financially alone. I mean if you look at the society as an organisation and individuals as components, how do you assess a persons worth? How easy/difficult is it? The more i think about the question, the more confused i become. A few factors i think should be considered mind for assessment are as follows
  • Happiness quotient
  • Social quotient
  • Neutrality quotient
  • Wiping/preventing tears quotient
  • Education quotient
Well, I think i need many posts to talk about the same! So this shall be my new theme that i shall explore in detail soon. :D

Monday, August 24, 2009

Never give in

Having grasped what ought to be grasped, do not let go of the grip till you succeed. Having desired what ought to be desired, hold on till your desire is fulfilled. Having asked what ought to be asked, hold on till your request is answered. Having thought what ought to be thought, hold on till you succeed. Either God should yield to your prayer or you should ask with wholehearted intensity. That is the path a true devotee should pursue.

-Divine Discourse, 12 Oct 2002

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Have you?

Have you seen what lows you are capable of stooping to?
Have you enjoyed the highs you reach?
Have you understood all facets of your complicated personality?
Have you attained the maturity to forgive yourself your flaws and your brilliance?
Have you accepted yourself for who you are?

Then look no further, it is in heaven you reside.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Choices in Paradise

In life there is always a question of choice and always numerous reasons for regrets. Regrets you harbour all the time or some of the time due to a few ormost choices you made. They say experience makes you wiser. But does it really? It just gives you a sample set of similar events to derive a sort of conclusion from. Conclusions again clouded by the tinted glasses we eternally wear, when we look at the world. How can one ever be objective? Is it possible to have an unbiased opinion about anything? Does the word opinion again not indicate a bias? It should be easy to go ahead and jump head along into the waves of fate letting them take you wherever they do.Easy choices people all around seem to be making. Easy choices which give you a sort of temporary satisfaction. Though in the long run, when you look back at life you are not too proud. Content yes. Definitely. Content at doing the right thing. Regret thinking about the not so right thing you did not do. When faced with a choice between contentment and regret which one to choose?
Convincing oneself is the easiest thing possible in the planet. Dont we all do it all the time? Convince ourself that what we have made is the right choice and what we have is the best possible.Create a wonderful fools paradise where there is bliss and in which we all happily live.Dreams we once in a while wake up from, when we think something is missing. Dreams we go back to in a few minutes as the idea of searching for something absent is really scary.The idea of changing our mundane existence also is.
Do I dare? Take a step forward and challenge my own convictions? How deep is my faith? Deep enough to withstand my cynical questioning? Some of them yes. They would stand against any force in the world because i believe in them from the bottom of my heart. One is ability to get back my life and rebuild it.The one in my soul that nothing has ever succeeded in killing. One is in my foundation. The one buried deep beneath and still very very powerful. One is in a few relationships. Those that stood by me in my highs and lows. Again, the cynic in me questions. Is it really the case? Have you really seen the highs? The high that could take you so far away from reality that people can only stand and look at it in awe? Have you really seen the lows? The lows none can bear to look down upon as they might accidentally fall in themselves? I havent. And I am at a loss for words. If the best is yet to come, what about the worst? Can you combat it when it does?
Then again, I have only one answer, a quote i read/heard a long time back. Things like this which stay by you for a long time but you have really no idea where they came from and for how long they have been in your life. "What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger." I want to be strong enough to face the world. I answer the cynic in me," I am ready"

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Agenda or No Agenda?

Every human being has a specific reason for doing everything. I am not talking about what the fates do to him. I am talking only about his actions. Sometimes actions are performed when the concerned person has an irresistible impulse or urge, that logic fails to define. Leading to actions they either live to regret or love to talk about. Claiming what their gut instinct helped them do. Which is worse? Doing things with an agenda or doing things without one? Consider the extreme scenarios of both cases. You do every damn thing in your life with an agenda. You talk to someone to improve your network. You go out so that you can be seen at the right place with the right person. Every spoken word, every performed action has a motive behind it.
The second case. You have no idea as to why you do anything. You start studying something and then drop it in the middle as you don't like it and start running behind another elusive dream. There is a motive in this case too. The motive of not having a motive. The advantages in both the cases is debatable. The part of me that loves to be organized likes doing things for a reason. The part of me that loves to live life likes doing things without any reason except the reason of feeling like doing it. I dont say that one who chooses the first path is not happy. Nor do i claim that the one who chooses the second path is happy. No matter how hard we try to put in a mix of things in our life,there will be regrets once you choose to regret.Here i go back again to the question of this elusive choice. At every point in our life you have a choice. At every point again, you so not have a choice.When you chose to not have a choice, you have a choice.
I see something in my desktop that shuts up the self centered human being in me. A boat, lost in the sea. No matter how high our sense of importance is, we are but a dot in the universe. What we do might trigger a series of events in a few lives. Sometimes, the impact may be high. Like a tiny bolt in a roller coaster falling off causing many in the peak of joy to plunge down to not so nice deaths. But then,just another bolt, falling off an old wheel lying in a forgotten corner, is not going to make too much of a difference to a large extent. I think about what i just wrote and i realize, you can never quantify the impact of an action.For all you know the roller coaster might be empty and the mechanic might miraculously find the loose nut, leading to one of those unsung miracle stories.And, the wheel might be needed by a bullock cart going to get a doc who has to oversee the birth of a bio war specialist. With or without agenda,fact remains, you cant do too much to tease fate. You might just get hit badly.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Praise or put down?

Does too much of encouragement kill the spirit of competition in an individual? How do we strike a balance between encouraging someone and demanding a result? A really interesting question. The more time i spend with children, the more they set me thinking.Does pampering someone actually make this impotent to handle competition? Or does it boost their self confidence so much that they can face any hurdle that would on other cases be impossible to conquer? There are a few people i know who do something to just prove that they can do it. So is it a challenge that brings out an individuals best? Or is this something dependent on an individual? Has he up above created a human being who doesnt like to be praised? I am not talking about the shallow back scratching praise a few idiots i know seem to like.I am referring to the heart felt appreciation that human beings decide to bless their counterparts with.
Is there any human being that likes to be put down? Well, psychos might exist and eternally depressed human beings who think they are unworthy of even the land they stand down. So when you put them down its more like, "See i knew i deserved it. It had to happen that way. I am so screwed." They seem to derive a strange sense of satisfaction in being proved right the wrong way. (I mean, i know you get it. all of you would have come across such self depreciating idiots)
Still, my question has left me thinking. To praise or to challenge? Not put down a person in the put down sense, but to do that in a challenging sense. Can a balance be reached?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Tagged!


Thanx a lot Archana, for the award and the tag. Dint know what to write today.
The rules for this tag are as follows:
1. Link the person who tagged you.

2. Display award on your blog with these rules
3. Reply to the questions below
4. Tag 7 people deserving the award according to you
5. Come back to BLoGGiSTa iNFo CoRNeR (PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE THIS LINK) at http://bloggistame.blogspot.com/ and leave the URL of your Post in order for you/your Blog to be added to the Master List


1.Person who tagged me : Archana
2. Tried displaying the award. Not hapenning
3.Here i go now!

A – Available/Single? Single :) :D
B – Best friend? I,Me,Myself
C – Cake or Pie? Cake.
D – Drink of choice? Tea,Water,Fruit Punch

E – Essential item you use every day? Mobile,Laptop

F – Favorite colour? Blue,Violet,Black,Green.
G – Gummy Bears Or Worms? Worms.To throw people i dont like into a pit full of them. Ha ha
H – Hometown? Madurai
I – Indulgence? Food. (I am a huge foodie. )

J – January or February? January. New year always perks my spirits
K – Kids & their names? None.
L – Life is incomplete without? Reading,sleeping

M – Marriage date? Any arbit day. Where is the groom btw?
N – Number of siblings? 1 Sister

O – Oranges or Apples? Apples

P – Phobias/Fears?
Not doing things i want to do.
Q – Quote for today? Seize they day!

R – Reason to smile? MSK
S – Season? Winter. In bangalore. Not pilani

T – Tag 7 People?
Hema
Sagnik
Jinny (Activate your blog)
Seshu
Anu (I know you dont blog much. still)
Jd
Vivek
U – Unknown fact about me? I dont reveal unknown fac
ts. They have to be discovered
V – Vegetable you don't like? Tomato,Onion (too much of it)
W – Worst habit?
Me and the word worst dont go in the same sentence.
X – X-rays you've had? One in the leg post an operation (I still retain it. Work of art i say!)
Y – Your favorite food? Thayir sadam oorga

Z – Zodiac sign? Gemini. A very very typical one

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Khaminey

One drug deal, one couple in love, one pair of twins mad at each other for a long time, one group of politicians obsessed with marathi put all this together and you dont have crap but a really brilliant and well made movie (for a hindi movie of course!)
Shahid Kapoor has acted well in a serious role and he really does a good job. I loved Charlie though! Priyanka Chopra has been under utilised. It was a really good character and she has done full justice to the role of sweety.
The director has introduced a host of really talented actors and the screen play and cinematography is really good.
I am really glad I went to watch the movie despite the swine flu scare in the city.
Talking about the swine flu scare, the people with the crazy masks scare me more than the disease.
I saw a guy today wearing the mask standing in the road side pani puri shop and hogging. Sigh. Stupid something. I dont want to spoil my blog using profanities. :)
This female next to me in the theatre was also wearing the mask and talking about the uselessness of it to her guy extremely loudly. Fear kills more than the disease.

Love song of Alfred J Prufrock

You are free to scream Yammandi after reading this post. :D
An extract from a poem by one of the very few people i admire. T.S.Eliot

For I have known them all already, known them all:
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?
And I have known the eyes already, known them all--
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?
And I have known the arms already, known them all--
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
(But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!)
Is it perfume from a dress
That makes me so digress?
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
And should I then presume?
And how should I begin?
And yes on a completely unrelated note, Here is wishing a happy birthday to one of the nicest people i know. Wish you a very happy birthday and a prosperous year ahead!

Friday, August 14, 2009

The monkey man machine loop

When you look at life as a detached observer and as a student of science, you realize that all of us are just molecules controlled by nerves. Rather, electrical like impulses that are transmitted by a bunch of wires running through the system. And of course with a commander (an overwhelming sense of self preservation asserts itself now) existing in a shapeless mass.Not too different from the experimental lab mice. The same ones on which we test miracle medicines-to cure wonderful human beings, on. When our lives spiral out of control and when things happen they way we don't want them to, we call it fate. What if that has what has been programmed into our heads by our creator? What if he placed a few outliers to question the same word? Something like a test and control population? (If you don't know what that means, call me. Ill explain) A very scary thought that kills my sense of importance. )Not my self respect though. Even if i am just another bunch of molecules, I love myself. I shall claim there is no similar one anywhere. :D ) So, at the end of the day all that we are are just machines which consider themselves too sophisticated to be called one. Deleting your blog or deleting a person out of your life would mean the same thing. :D
I just admire the programmer who created us. Imagine the imagination that must have come up with so many classifications. So many faces, chemical reactions called as emotions, feelings etc etc, unique identifiers and outliers. Also the interactions between groups and outliers. Or are we rogue machines (like the ones that we see in sci fi movies) that have evolved on their own and become different from what they were originally meant to be?Interesting.I like this explanation better. The planet we call earth was just one of the empty labs the programmer wanted to conduct experiments in. He created an ideal population, placed them in different locations within te lab and monitored their behaviour. Fortunately/Unfortunately, lost control and so here we have a bunch of man monkeys pretending to control and create new things.
Then, I realise nothing really matters. Success, failure, interactions- nothing. There is an emotion I like to feel. Rather a chemical reaction i really like. The desired output from my program. So, I shall perform operations to attain it. What other bloated egos would call 'Happiness'.

Syntax and rules


"I dont know why. I just know it" How many things exist in our lives without us knowing why they do? How many things do we do automatically without thinking why we do it? I spend some time every week witha few kids. I was telling one of them the spelling of the word apple. He asked me, " Why do we spell it APPLE and not as APPEL?" I told him that that's how everybody does it and if he does it in a different way he would be penalized. Every week, these kids set me thinking on one issue or another. Why do we do things by a specific rule? Even spelling a mere word. There is not going to be too much of a difference if i change that. But, if we don't play according to rules, there would be utter chaos in the world. I will give the cliche example of non existent road rules. The number of accidents would just spike up. But then IF, a big IF at that, we were considerate and careful we would automatically discipline ourselves and rules would just kick in.
Else, chaos! Utter chaos that creates fear(very like the swine flu. LOL) So does discipline. The discipline of the likes of our dear Hitler.
I am not someone against rules. In fact, my mom claims that i am extremely disciplined and my sister tells me i drive her up the wall with my rules. But sometimes i feel we just give too much importance to them. These rules which are sometimes mere words put together for convenience eons ago.
I have always hated programming errors due to the wrong syntax. Recently I come to look at it this way. I want the computer to do something for me. So, to please it and manipulate it to do what i want, I play by its rules. Just to get the desired output. But my life, is not a computer program. I live by my own rules.The syntax for my life's program if there is any is this

If(Harini wants something, If(important people aren't affected, Harini makes sure she gets it, ignore),ignore)

This would make sense to whoever knows excel coding. :D (Yes, i am breaking my head over a complicated excel if loop now. This looks much simpler and nicer)

Its time we stopped following rules we follow blindly as we have been told to and we dont know what else to do. I want a world full of rules we follow as we want to and because we know why. Else this beautiful thing called life becomes a computer program. One we write with a specific syntax some disgusted creator with a severe stomach ache came up with. Semicolons, inverted quotes at places, case sensitive words, limited memory space. Only this, is not life. Limitless sky, beautiful grasslands and the wonderful rain- this is also life. The latter is what i choose to see. The former exists. Yes, I follow rules. But only when they help me coexist and when they are meaningful. Not ones that threaten me

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Unedited rantings

One man's food is another man's poison. I am supposed to say that nothing lasts forever and nothing is real. But then, if that is the case, let me call everything a mirage. So if everything is a mirage, it fits the image of a mirage, and in that way it is a real mirage. There is something real about it then right? In some frame of reference it is real. Is it possible to break something into too many minor pieces that there is nothign left of it? You can claim to do that, but then the pieces still exist. So then, it is lasting. in another form. Not necessarily in the form you saw it. Effectively, everything lasts forever in a different form and in a different realm, everything is actually real. Consider a person sitting inside a twisted glass test tube. Imagine one that huge if you are going to have difficulty imagining it, i cant help your limited mind. Now what do you see? What you imagined. A huge twisted contorted test tube. You find it twisted. But did you ever think, what the person inside the test tube is seeing? Another extremely magnified, twisted and contorted person. Before you throw the blame, think. How do you look from the other side? It is a really different issue if you dont give a damn. Then in that case, it is equally possible that the other person doesnt either. So what is the use of the opinion to anybody but to yourself?You have successfully labelled and branded something. That is all you have done. A branding for your own personal reference. A branding which you use to see the world objectively in your realm. But is it all needed? This change of form, change of ideas, does it achieve anything at the end of the day? Can your branding someone change them? Can your finding something surreal change it? The best you can do is alter your perception. At the end of the day if you have achieved a so called state of happiness, all is well and good. Happiness again is something you would not be able to recognise unless you have tasted sorrow. There has to be a frame of reference right? If you have never tasted sorrow, then everything is neutral and yes, you can call the neutral state happiness too. Where is euphoria then? Where is depression? It is all relative.(Reminded of the relative grading i had in bits. I wondered what would happen if everybody did well when i first came across it. Later, i was left wondering as to why everybody did so badly.) What if what i brand as philosophy is nothing but pure unadulterated bullshit(PUB) to people? What if what is nonsense to me is something extremely meaningful to them? I see a lot of examples in my everyday life. But yes, now i dont have too much patience to type down everything thats going on in my head. I want some intellectual person to discuss it all with. Someone to whom what i call philosophy is philosophy. Someone who wouldnt mind discussing it even if it seemed to be PUB. :)
To somebody who refuses to think too much and complicate her life, this is as much thinking as i can do in 10 minutes. Thank god for small mercies. Thank god, i can see blue for the color it is and not wonder if what i see as blue is what another person would call green in his/her world. Well, thank god i dont do it too often anyway. What if everyone sees the same face in the mirror? What if we see others as with different faces but they all have the same face? How can you put yourself in another persons shoes and see the world through his/her eyes? Is it possible? Can we ever reach a point when we all see the same things, feel the same feelings all the time and understand and accept each other? Or are we already in such a world but the understanding and the acceptance is not wide spread? Would the world disappear the moment we achieved this highly evolved state? I dont know. is it an evolved state in the first place? is improvemetn really necessary? The ponderings i can easily write a book on. :D

Monday, August 10, 2009

My attempts to think

I find life to be extremely strange. A few qns keep running through my mind a lot these days.

  • Why cant you measure the extent of the impact of few incidents on the mental well being of a human being? Seemingly small things build up bigger road blocks than the major incidents.
  • Why do memories of things so beautiful make you weep?
  • Why do you wish that words uttered with the utmost sincerity were never spoken?
  • Why do things once pregnant with meaning seem absolutely meaningless?
  • Can sorrow cloud your vision so much that you cant see anything else but that no matter how much effort goes into the process of recovery?
  • Is everything just a matter of time? Time the biggest friend and the biggest enemy anybody could have?
  • Is there nothing in the world that is indispensable? Apart from food, water and air of course. Can we live without everything else?
  • Why do we run out of tears when we laugh too hard and also when we weep too long?
  • Is happiness just another form of sorrow? Another mirage that exists to show you how badly you can be hit when you fall? I mean, if there is no sorrow you cant define happiness and vice versa.
  • Is there no neutral ground where we can meet without interplay of emotions?Did he up above bless us with emotions so that we complicate otherwise simple lives? Or did he do it so that we can glimpse heaven and hell while living and realise there is not too much of difference between the two anyway?Realise that one cannot exist without the other?

These are just a few questions running through my mind. Questions i am trying to find answers to. There can be nothing called a question if something called an answer does not exist. There has to be something intrinsically very very different and very very similar to everything created. The something that defines the other thing. The world exists because of the balance. Without which, there would only be the neutral ground we all want to live on, the neutral ground that wouldnt let us appreciate life as much as we do it right now. The neutral ground that wouldnt let us differentiate between high and low.

A few excuses i give

  • I am not fat! Just call me muscularly advantaged.
  • I am healthy. What better indication of that than round cheeks?!
  • Ever heard of santa claus? He is round and jolly! Humph.
  • These are just memories of good times i spent with people in good restaurants. I dont want to lose them.
  • Enakku udambellam moolanu en maths teacher sonaanga. What if i accidentally get rid of it?
  • If i meet with an accident i need something to cushion the fall and prevent my bones from breaking
  • I need the time i might spend there for other intellectual and rejuvenating pursuits like sleeping and reading
  • I am a very social person. I dont like going all by myself to the gym! It will be so boring!
  • What if oppurtunity knocks on my door when i am out exercising?
  • I might get dehydrated by sweating too much! People can die of dehydration. Has anyone told you that!


Italics - My maths teacher once said that I have brains all over my body. A very rough translation. Non tamils, kindly pardon

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Let love in

You wait, wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

The ride of a lifetime


He gets into the bus, a really crowded one on a friday morning. The weekend was just around the corner and he was looking forward to it. He catches sight of it, right in the middle of the bus and rushes forth to claim his place before anybody else could. He had to have his balance. This was just the thing. He looked around the bus, lost in thought. Everybody was eyeing the seat right next to the place where he was standing. One look and he was completely hooked. It seemed extremely captivating. You seldom got a chance to do something like this on a crowded bus. This was the stuff dreams were made of. It seemed like a good day. Such an entertaining time pass. The Volvo was riding smoothly down the road and he spent his time lost in the object right below him. His friend brought him back to reality. "Dude, the stop is here. Lets go" He was just about done anyway. One of the best bus rides in his young life.
"Significance of software for statistical testing" read the name of the book in the girls hand. He had finished the first chapter along with her.
"That chick was so pretty man!" his friend exclaimed. "Interesting" was his only reply.

P.S. A post inspired by the person that inspired the post. Yes, Thats how imaginative i am at 1.30 in the morning. No offence meant

Thursday, August 06, 2009

5 more. :D

This post is a continuation of this, where i had listed the 16 reasons to remain single. My friend claimed i was being extremely biased and that I should look at things in an unbiased manner. So here i go again, coming up with another list. 5 reasons why you shouldn't be single.
  1. There is always someone you can count on and open yourself upto. Without bothering about that person breaking your trust. (There is always a shoulder to lean on)
  2. You always have company for a movie/lunch/dinner ( I can also rephrase it as you'll never be lonely again)
  3. There is someone to bother about you when you are sick, sort of to throw tantrums and get pampered in return (in simple words to awaken the child in you all the time) and that person is not your mom/dad.
  4. You have company to travel to exotic locales (You should have saved up enough being single for this. LOL)
  5. You could forget everything in the world except the two of you. (While nothing else need last forever, this would)
All this apart, there is always this feeling which makes you fly and makes you live every moment in your life to the fullest.
I am not against the word commitment/committed individuals. Just cant stand relationships for the heck of it. :) and yes, i believe in love. :D
I have come up with an extremely soppy post based on the input from few committed individuals. This is NOT going to be the theme for my future posts so readers dont fret. I havent gone crazy (crazier would be better?)

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

I wish and i dream

I wish..
to stop the world from revolving,
and redefine its orbit
to stop the sun from shining,
and make it less cruel
to stop the rain drops from falling
and hurl them back at a surprised sky

I dream..
about finding, the answer to a solutionless puzzle
of stopping this struggle
about getting what i want
about showing the world
euphoria is just a state of mind. :)

Persistence n all is fine, but you just cant wake someone up who is pretending to be asleep. A pot of boiling water can do the trick of course, but you might end up bruising the person in question. Tricky situation.Solution is to just let it be i guess. What say? Or to forget it and find better things to do. :D

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

16 reasons?!

Today, I was having a rather illuminating discussion with a friend of mine about the merits of being single. I just thought i would share a few gems from my pet topic.

  1. When you say you are going for a movie, people ask you both the name of the movie and that of the companion/companions.No "Oh, which one are you going with him/her."
  2. You have all the time in the world for yourself, to do the housework, to read books, to just sleep etc etc
  3. You can decide to do a road trip at 10 in the morning and start at 11 and nobody questions you.
  4. The word relationship doesn't mean just one person who ends up being your identity
  5. Arguments with someone /Someones achievements dont become the only highlight in your otherwise boring and bleak existence
  6. There is definitely a freedom to explore existing options at length
  7. You can carry on uninterrupted conversations with the opposite gender for hours
  8. Home can be the dirtiest room in the world and no cleanliness freak gf walks in to wail,"what do we have here?!"
  9. Your social life can be extremely hectic and you need not compromise on it to just be with one person.
  10. Your expenses are much lesser than those of your committed counterparts
  11. More savings=> ability to buy more gadgets and yes, ability to travel to exotic locales. Need i elaborate?!
  12. You can concentrate on doing an MBA.
  13. Your life partner is faceless. There is an element of mystery that has not been demystified yet
  14. You need not be a nurse maid/baby sitter/secretary (well, some willingly do it, comes naturally but still!)
  15. You can punch a pillow instead of a real person. No hospitalization required
  16. In short, do whatever you please, go wherever you want and fly whenever you want. :D
Initially dint want to have a long post. Then realised 16th august is the birthday of a good friend of mine who gets irritated with my listing down reasons. So here it goes, 16 reasons. :D

Monday, August 03, 2009

It all changed one day!

  1. It was when coming home every day changed to coming home once a semester and nowadays, once a month.
  2. It was when requesting the menu to mom changed to predicting the menu in the mess and nowadays designing the menu for the week.
  3. It was when bugging dad to take you out changed to wondering where and whom to hang out with a minimum budget and nowadays to going out whenever I want wherever possible.
  4. It was when doing what my parents told changed to discussing and asking them for permission and now to sometimes informing them after an impulse decision.
  5. It was when sleeping 10 hours a day changed to sleeping all day and now to trying to catch some sleep whenever I can.
It was then that i realised I am no longer a kid. I have two homes to go back to now.
Its been five years since i joined BITS and the 5 points i penned down are just the tip of the iceberg. Absolutely unbelievable. Last five years have seen me change so much. Sometimes, I am heartbroken about growing up and sometimes,just completely delighted.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Inked Emotions

You were there when i was down
You were there when i acted like a clown
You caught tears that fell
You prevented many more
You made me see the sky so blue
You made me feel comfort so true
For all lines that rhyme
and the many others that dont
For all the miles in between
and for the closeness i feel
For all the dreams you made come true
A mere few lines i pen
to say my thanks
to the many who made my life
so beautiful and blissful

"Happy friendship day!"

Love Aaj Kal

I am just another bangalore person with a weekend plan involving watching movies and eating out. :D This weekend the movie in question ended up being Love Aaj Kal. Imtiaz Ali has perfected the art of making romantic movies in Hindi. This one, is easily one of the best movies i have seen this year. (Not that i saw too many. But definitely much better than Luck,Billu Barber, Dilli 6 etc etc)
The movie has a few things that is quite easy to identify with. Relationships becoming more of issues of the mind and less of issues of the heart is something that we see happening around us. The way both the lead characters are practical enough to place their career before their love is another instance. They actually throw a break up party when they feel the relationship is not going to work out. Now this bit, which comes as one of the initial scenes, is something i never expected in a hindi movie. It made me sit up and take notice of the whole movie.Has the industry become more open now? (Mentally i mean. :P) A leading lady whose life desire is painting frescos. Different and quite interesting.

Evrybody has done a good job with an almost dazzling performance in this movie.(Note the almost. Nothing as they say, is perfect!) Deepika looks stunning and absolutely adorable. Saif looks a little old at times, but in the scenes where he comes in as a sardar, he is decent looking.The best thing about the movie,apart from the brilliant songs, is the way in which Saif's present and Rishi Kapoor's past happen in parallel. The girl who essays the role of the latter's lady love has a typical village belle's looks, with the innocence in her eyes and that beautiful smile that lights up her face. Deepika's boss, has also acted really well. (As you would have found out by now, i do not remember the real names of these people only the reel names. :D)

There are a lot of cute scenes in the movie. Both of them calling each other up when they find someone else, their stealthy roaming around in the streets of delhi, the phone call when she is in the airport where she tells him all that she found irritating in him,the lines in the climax, etc etc. I dont want to reveal too much, as it would not be so interesting to read it off my blog, as it would be while watching it in the theatre.

This is a really different movie, a road i am glad the director went down and yes, this, definitely is a milestone in his career.He can definitely become better though.The dialogues and the screen play is also decent. And yes, the latter could have speeded up a little in the second half of the movie. Good time pass and time well spent on entertaining entertainment
(P.S. My movie reviews are not exactly masterpieces. They might be confusing.But bottom line is, go watch the movie. I loved it. :D)