Thursday, December 31, 2009


I flicked this from something Aishu told me yesterday. I dont know where she got it from. :D

"Having a long distance relationship is like having fish as a pet. You can do nothing but stare at the bowl in which it is held."


12 in 12

One more year is done and I cant believe how much things have changed in the last one year! A few discoveries I never wanted to know about, a few choices I wish someone else had been asked to make and a few days, someone else could have lived. Now that I am done with the unpleasant stuff, 2009, was absolutely awesome! The 12 remarkable things that stood out (Not necessarily one for each month)
  1. I moved out on my own! I got a house and then slowly learnt to live with all the responsibilities that come with one. I am still as happy as I was the day I started living on my own
  2. I was introduced to new authors, started appreciating older ones and of course expanded my existing book collection. (Retirement plan is a library)
  3. My writing improved. My blog is definitely happier now than before even if it is not record breaking stuff.
  4. Made up with a few people who mattered. Thanks 183 for being there for crazy me
  5. Almost done with learning to drive a car.
  6. Thanks to few people, realised it is not worth the trouble to try to stay in touch with those that would never matter. There would only be spite, jealousy and anger.
  7. When you try to save someone drowning in a moat of self pity, most probably, you would also be sucked in with them. Nothing is going to help them, for their troubles are created.
  8. I found myself in a lot of ways. I found the peace i so badly sought. Thanks to the rainbows. All the beauty in the world is now in the palm of my hand.
  9. Snehasadan and the children there. It is quite unfortunate that I cannot go there any more. But they added so much meaning to my life.
  10. My vacations. :D
  11. Finished 3 + .5+ .5 in the 30 before 30 list. :)
  12. Got insomnia and then got rid of it too.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A few specials

  1. Peter English Shirts just Rs.25 a piece
  2. Very much America. A 2 wheeler in the right side of the road curses the car in the left side
  3. Sboken Inglish tot hear
  4. " We modern peoples. No road side thing. Only brand. See Ray Ban"
  5. "He is a truthful guy. He has a long moustache"
  6. "Why is the army fighting in the border? Send Captain Vijayakanth. He will manage the enemy troops by himself."
  7. My son in foreign. Bangaloor. Big. Very Big
  8. "I no talk Tamil. We improve. Only English talk."
  9. "You are very beautiful. I want friendship"
  10. "I know why you are getting only a 4 wheeler licence. You will only marry a guy with a car so you can take the children to school"
P.S: Points 5,6,10 translated from tamizh for those who dont know the lovely language.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Untitled ramblings or is it enlightenment?

People age. Agreed. It is a well known fact. It happens as they say due to the passage of time.
Food items come with an expiry date. Everything in the world does I think. Is it only because of this heartless thing called time? Or is it wrong in calling time heartless? Is time something wonderful as time and again it gives us new experiences, helps us open our souls and strive to leave behind our shortcomings? What i sometimes wonder does improvement achieve? I have asked this question so many times in so many forms in this blog.

I sometimes feel, human beings only want more the more they get. So does all this change for the better really help us in the long run? I dont know. As usual, i deviate from the topic. That way, it seems so sensible that this post is untitled as we cant possible title and classify our thought process.

You start with something which leads to another and then to another and then you are just left with a striking revelation that you never even set out to find in the first place. The revelation i just had is that, Life for all its absurdity is in a way too glorious to be captured by words. I have all the time in the world to reflect thanks to the luxurious life i lead (compared to every third indian living below the poverty line) I wonder if i still would when i am hungry. I guess I would just wail foood.


I am dead scared of traffic. Driving a two wheeler in madurai was the closest i have come to controlling a motor vehicle. For those of you who have driven around in places with unregulated traffic, you know how painful this is. I was so bugged that I never drove a vehicle after that. (My darling cycle in pilani is a different story) However, thanks to the miracle man, I now wanted to get a 4 wheeler licence. Today, I went to get my LLR. After submitting all the required documents, I was eagerly waiting to write my test when the computer screen greets me with a pop up "No more candidates to take the test!" (Madurai has an online exam you have to pass to get an LLR. Talk about advancement! They had brilliant computers there.)

I ask the guy near me and he greets me with a wide smile (The ones usually reserved for damsels in distress) and he tells me, "Ungalodathu thaane madam, avar ezhuthittu irukaaru"(translation: Madam, your exam is being written by him) pointing to an idiot in another computer. I run there to see my face in the terminal and one of the guys in the RTO office writing my exam!

I rushed in and successfully answered questions. However, it was he who clicked it. This, they said, was how it was being done for everybody. And this, i am not at all happy with. Funniest part is, i realise, this is how all our lives are too.

In each one of us exists the innate desire to be accepted. To be given the licence to live without being judged. The licence to live our lives the way we want it without too many complications. As simple as it might seem to most people, in reality, it seldom is the case. Sometimes, the path leading to it is so treacherous that people choose to perish or to give up what they wanted in the first place. They find it a lot easier to let more experienced people live their life. I usually struggle to not swim with the tide. I fight against it when it is not what i have envisioned for myself. However, with time, I am human enough to get tired. But just the firm belief that what lies at the end is worth it, keeps me going.

I dedicate this post to all people out there, who are waiting for this licence. It is of course a different issue that one should be mature enough to utilise the licence without misusing it and becoming a public nuisance. I pray for the wisdom to live my life

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Barking at the Moon - Jenny Lewis

Heard the song in bolt. Loved it. Sigh. Awesome. I know I am sentimental sometimes. :D

I have got so much to give, I swear I do.

I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new.
Yes I've lived a good one.
I have tried to be true.
There are some things I never realized, till I met you.
How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I'm barking at the moon.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

Well I was in trouble, bad.
I was so confused.
I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue.
I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true.
My experience was so mysterious, till I met you.
Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you...

Saturday, December 26, 2009

New beginnings

There is something very beautiful about a beginning. There is so much of hope, fear and joy in it. Not to mention, a beauty that words cannot capture. Everyone has had a chance for a new beginning. It need not be something very major like a job change or a new college/school.

It can be something as simple as being able to get into the kitchen for the second time after you successfully burnt a family's dinner the previous night.

It can be your first attempt at trying to master a vehicle.

It can be your first attempt at trying to swim

It can be your first attempt to forgive an irritating sibling and forgetting his/her ignorance

It can be your nth attempt to convince someone of your undying love

Whatever it is, every human being has his/her own new beginning and at that level all of us connect. No matter what race or color, we understand how scary it is to leave behind our own sanctuaries and venture out into the wild. We know what it is like to hope and what it is like to dream. I can see that connection and I feel so much in sync with the rest of the world. (That doesnt mean i am going to do what they want me to. I would still only follow my heart. )

I am inspired by the life around me to create a masterpiece. To give back what has been given to me with interest.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Time account

There are times in your life when you have so much to do and so little time.

Then again, there are times when you have so little to do and so much time.

Can i just save minutes like you know have a seperate account where like money, i save seconds and use it on a busy day? ( I am not that great at saving for a rainy day. still..)

This is just what is running in my mind right now. Maybe, it is high time i did something about my book.

Happy christmas

This is the season of joy and cheer..

I still remember my 2003 Christmas when i was in school. We always had a lovely celebration. I know a lot of stories and gospels from Christianity thanks to my school. I love the concept of Christmas and the way people celebrate it by giving gifts.

I want to wish each and every one of you a merry Christmas. Celebrate life and appreciate those around you. Nothing is going to be better than that..

Thursday, December 24, 2009

I have bubble gum in my hair. Not to mention, a severe neck pain thanks to sitting in a so called special AC bus which cost me the earth and was still crappy. I have to definitely put in a word about my co-passengers who were coming to tamil nadu for the first time. "The conductor says the bus will reach at 8. But my calculations said 6.30! I guess it is because chennai to madurai is 150km less than bangalore to madurai." Wonderful information if it had been correct. But i did not want it at 12 in the night.

All of a sudden one of them breaks into tamil! As my sister rightly put it, all these guys know are three languages and they are trying really hard to flaunt it. Sigh.. I hope we were (the wing in college) not so bad when we were travelling to bits.

Thankfully, the almighty was a little merciful and there were no wailing children on board. I am now sitting happily at home and wondering if the journey was worth the trouble! Still, i have 11 more days left!

Monday, December 21, 2009

If i look at it from where i am now, I have only one question. What does all of this achieve? This drive to stand out, this drive to want to reach the stars.. At the end of the day, there are others who stand out as much as you, to reach the stars you have to have a space jet and no matter how high you go, you can still climb higher.

I guess, it is anyday better when you are happy being who you are, they way you are, striving to compete with yourself. I am already half asleep. So i shall not try to type something revealing now. :D


A time to work
A time to live
A time to indulge
A time to unwind
A time to love
A time to let go
A time to speak
A time to be silent
A time to be happy
A time to be sad
A time to dream
A time to wake up
A time to party
A time to disappear
A time to describe time..

What time is it for me now?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Why men should not write advice columns

Hope everybody who reads it gets a good laugh! Thanks Rama~!

Monday, December 14, 2009

A scribe from the dark

I love the night. I love staring at the starry sky and attempting to spot zillion star clusters. They seem to welcome me wholeheartedly. A huge contrast from the sun. I end up getting away from it in the shade of my sun glasses.

I connect so quickly to the outside world with the help of my faithful companion. My lovely laptop and I have hours of conversation as i open myself up to explore many facets I never knew existed. I dont hear the constant honking of horns that seems to symbolize bangalore life to me nowadays. I love the night.

I can talk for hours on the phone and there is none to overhear what i talk. Though sometimes there is none to talk to. But different time zones across the globe does serve the purpose. I am awake while the whole world around me sleeps. I love the night.

I love reading a book when there is no noise whatsoever. The experience is so fulfilling and oh! So beautiful. To be lost in words and to be carted off to a faraway world sometimes filled with people very like those you know and sometimes very different, is a beauty i dont find words to explain. I love the night

I love the music i hear at minimal volume which in the day is consumed by the noise outside. I truly, unwind. I am in sync with the life around me and for a change, it helps me relax. I hear the tiniest change in beat, the smallest shift in tone and in the almost noiseless music i hear, I really listen. I hate loud noises. I love the night.

I prey on unsuspecting people by leaving behind scraps or wall posts for them to answer. I read my newspaper in the night. I am sure that all earth shattering stuff can definitely wait a day for me. The feeling of power i get then, I doubt if anyone would understand. I love the night

I fall into a deep sleep that nothing can easily wake me up from, thanks to the silence and the acceptance around me. I love the night. I always will.

There is something about the night that attracts me a lot nowadays. Earlier this day, I was contemplating my life two years ago when i woke up at the unearthly hour of seven almost everyday. Now that I think about it, I feel I cannot pull it off. I am in love with the night and the silence and the beauty that surrounds me then.

I love the night. I dedicate this post to my best friend, the deep dark night sky and the accepting silence I get everynight. (I wanted to write everyday, but then, it is not day)


I love running around. I do that a lot especially in the weekends. But this sunday, I just stayed put for most of the day and believe me, I enjoyed it! I doubt if i would be happy doing it for a long time, but once in a while seems just about fine with me. Sleeping all day without a care in the world and waking up to read.. I finished Agatha Christie's "Man in the brown suit" It was a decent read. Had a little romantic story line and you seldom find that in her books. I finished it and was contemplating life and somehow, felt happy and blessed. I know that that is not the usual feeling one gets after reading a mystery novel. Thats how i felt though. :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Comic Cafe

I stumbled across this place in koramangala tonight.It is called Comic Cafe. I liked their concept. They have a room full of comic books and also a coffee and soft drink vending machine. You pay 15 rs for half an hour and 6 rs going forward and you can sit and read as many books as you want. I loved the idea! Unfortunately, they had mostly Japanese comics and I am not a huge fan of the same. But the place was so peaceful and the experience was also wonderful. I have to appreciate this idea. Seems like a good retirement plan for me. :D

Saturday, December 12, 2009

High Hopes

I am a huge fan of Pink Floyd. But this post has nothing to do with it except for the title.

The story begins a few days ago when i decided to go for a complete make over. (That in my dictionary means shopping till i drop and claim the new clothes reflect my recent personality) Today was the date i had decided for the same and i had a wonderful time table in mind. However, I had the misfortune of borrowing a pair of shoes. Then, as they say, it all began.

I couldnt balance for the first one hour (Did i mention it was highest heels i had worn in my life? And did i also mention that i usually have problems balancing in heels?) I attributed it to the flats i usually wore and thought that i should wear more such footwear often and look taller and er.. Graceful. :D Post lunch, Strands books sale was in my agenda. I go over to hotel chalukya and disaster strikes as i try to cross the road. I cant walk fast and the traffic hardly stops for a few seconds. After few unsuccessful attempts, i succeed and find myself face to face with one of the few exhibitions i had liked last year.

I search for my phone to call up mom and ask for her wishlist (Makes me sound like a sweet daughter right? Believe me, I am) I cannot find the damn thing! Quite unlike me to forget my phone. Since I am always talking, I never leave it behind. Today's company had a lot of interesting things to say that the cell phone seemed secondary. Company was already irritated with my antics and I was sure I would be dumped in sometime.

Coming back to strands, I rush in to see loads of people standing around. I move from one table to another and finding a good book becomes an impossibilty. Then i notice, the searing pain in my foot. I frantically search for a place to sit and that with time, became a distant hope and so i rush out to sit in the steps and watch the traffic and wait for the company to miss me. (I forgot my phone. So all medium of communication cut off and i was too lazy and in pain to find company)

An uneventful fifteen minutes later, I am rescued and taken to the next shoppers stop. I for a change find the dress of my dreams there (yes, I love exagerrating) and again am unable to hunt longer. Thanks to pain in the leg. I sit down and watch the people in the shop (Couples, singles, all of them modelling. Sigh)

As no visit to Garuda is complete without one to M.G.Road, I go there and again, it happens, the pain and the lack of seating arrangements. (I had decided not to eat out more than once so i DID NOT want to enter a restaurant.) Desperation drew me to a BATA showroom and i bought myself a pair of beach wear. The sins of my past however haunt me and I still am suffering from the pain.

I dedicate this post to all women who wear heels and carry it off. Long live your legs. I shall remember them in my prayers.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009


I was organising my computer and realised i had a lot of unpublished stuff. A few lines i had penned down and never published. :)

Its not that you will fall that matters. Its whether you enjoyed doing what you do before that and also how fast you are ready to get up...

More than enough aint never enough. :D

We could spend our whole lives working but we are young only for a little while. So pause and look and yes take a deep breath! Enjoy your youth too.

Improvement is a life long process. Constantly evaluate yourself and compete with yourself. After all, you are easily the best that there is for yourself. :)

See where you have come from where you were. Then think if you would have complained then. ( I have to repeat this to myself sometimes. I can see a few raised eyebrows. Ok. A lot of times)

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Learning to fly

In her eyes I saw wonder
In her eyes I saw Joy..
Joy pure and beautiful
The beauty that inspired envy..

I tread carefully
Afraid my heavy steps
Would disturb what those eyes saw
She looked at me
Innocence radiating in the face
that turned to welcome me

"I am learning to fly"
She told me.
Shocked, Speechless I stand
My adult mind playing out
thousands of gory circumstances,

Imagining the little body fly down
From tall buildings and terraces
Scared, I pull her to me
and hold her tight

"Wings.. You need wings for that"
I tell her..
I wish it was not so soon for her to lose
her simple lovely innocence..
I pause to explain..
All lessons learnt in the many science classes
All lessons learnt that nipped many a dream in the bud

She waits with a patience of many a sage
She waits for the end of the long sermon
given out by the adult full of infinite wisdom
The adult, aware of the rules of the world

She gazes deep into my eyes and says,
"I am learning to fly and i am flying here"
I notice her hands pointing to her head

That minute I see the wisdom in the innocence
I wake up and understand
that it is high time i started learning to fly

Sunday, December 06, 2009


I have commitment phobia. I always used to feel that commitments hinder one's independence and made it a point to not have too many. Then, with time, i understood that, I was committed to the idea of not being committed and reality hit me with its trademark punch. Nobody can escape them. You hate them, you start tolerating them and soon you realise, you cannot live without them (courtesy : Shawshank Redemption)

Commitments give you the reason to wake up everyday. Be it the commitment to your job, to your spouse or to the noisy children wailing in the background or best of all, to yourself. The trouble with human beings is that, they refuse to honour commitments they make. If the politicians had honored their commitments, there wouldn't be so much of corruption and violence in the country. If doctors honor their commitments, there wouldnt be high medical bills and people being hospitalised for a simple fever. If lawyers honored theirs, a lot of problems would be solved much faster. Autowalas, Traffic policeman, every human being driving in the road, every cook in a hotel, every person standing guard in the harbor.. If all of us, had a simple factor of commitment, Life would be so much more better.

What the world needs to achieve the world peace beauty queens rave about, is plain, simple commitment. Every one has a role to do in this world. I hope someday, we all decide to be committed to what we do and just fill the role up properly. I decide to commit to life and everything about it and do my bit to make the world a better place to live in

My commitment to my stomach now leads me towards the yummy food mom has made in the kitchen. :)

Saturday, December 05, 2009

I am hogging home cooked food and sleeping like a log. Wow! What a vacation!

And, I have got brilliant ideas for my book. :D

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Inspirational quotes

"Whatever you can do, or dream you
can begin it. Boldness has genius,
power and magic in it."
- Goethe

"The belief in a thing makes it happen."

- Frank Lloyd Wright

All blame is a waste of time.
No matter how much fault you find with another
and regardless of how much you blame him,
it wil not change you.

Music washes away from the soul
the dust of everyday life.
- Berthold Auerbach

"Achievement seems to be connected
with action. Successful men and
women keep moving. They make
mistakes, but they don't quit."
- Conrad Hilton

Quotes I read recently..

Tuesday, December 01, 2009


I guess it has become a favorite line of mine. "Life is very funny"

A reason i say this today is this word called dissatisfaction. Every human being at some point in his life or the other, aspires for something or to be something. Is he lucky the one who is able to attain his aspiration? Or is he lucky the one that keeps trying? I always felt the former was the glad one. But with time, i realise, that it is not always the case. You achieve what you wanted. There is so much of joy that you can never harness at that instant. It lasts for sometime. Then you get so used to the achievement. At this point, two extreme things happen. You are happy with what you are, remain sedentary and slowly rot away because, you no longer find the necessity to be better.

The second scenario: You like what you have for sometime and later, get so used to it and are not able to appreciate the finer points in what you have. You just wonder why your life has become so pathetic and what led you to take such decisions in the first place. (Human beings i think prefer being unhappy to happy) and you start to not want what you have. Your memory of life before your object of desire had been attained fails you. You are lost and all alone. Sometimes, people are lucky and they find something else to do that helps them achieve satisfaction. At other times, they arent. Disenchantment creeps in followed by our dear friend dissatisfaction. You wonder who you really are and if what you have and what you do represents who you are.

The age old human desire to fit in and stand out slowly starts expressing itself and you are back to square one. Now, all the more cynical.

I wonder, is it really worth all the trouble? This urge in us to keep wanting things and keep discarding them in the hope of something better? True, this led to evolution. True, this led to a lot of discoveries. But has this made things any different? Our concepts remain the same. We just call it different things.

Maybe this blog sounds incomplete. But it is just a snapshot of what is running through my mind. Maybe, on a later day, i might do something about it