I wonder where and how it all started in india. The question - "What are you doing at 12 on 31st night? " I wonder when our obsession with this began. I see folks spending so much money to bring in a new year. I realized a few years back that I want to bring in the new year at the place I love the most - our lovely house. I've got an interesting menu planned and folks coming over. I hope the next year is as awesome as this one and I don't fall for peer pressure and do anything silly this year too.
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
|One of the smaller towers|
|Yali at the entrance|
|Narasimha killing hiranyakasipu|
I found two Wizard of oz books the first and the second in bookworm off brigade road. I was so delighted and I've started reading the series. I finished two and ordered ozma of oz as an eBook. Its so wonderful. Even years, rather decades after release these books are so magical. The story is timeless. I pray that I'd be able to create a marvel like this someday. Timeless and entertaining and enriching.
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
The malur road has no lights. I feel safe there because we have these two along. I doubt I'll be so calm else. I wonder how people in that area live. How are they ok getting by without electricity? If the world goes to the dogs and there is no petrol and electricity I think those guys will be able to get by happily while I won't be. It's a road which makes me ponder and laugh when I cross places like a.chettypalli, masti etc. I am glad I have a life which let's me explore, which gives me a chance to drive through unknown roads towards a beautiful destination which I never tire of coming back to because home is where my heart definitely is.
To those unfamiliar, the story goes like this. Periyalwar was a tamil saint. He attended to the temple and one day in the temple garden he found a beautiful baby girl. Childless himself he brought her up. Andal was in love with lord Vishnu and would wear the garland she made for him everyday before it was taken for The Lord. She composed the tirupaavai and was happy to be in love until her father found out one day. He found a match for her to marry her off but before the wedding, Andal becomes one with The Lord. Till date you can see the well where Andal saw her reflection in the water when she wore the mala and also the garden where she was found.
Periyalwars descendants are still around and you can visit the house where Andal was brought up. I am not sure how accurate that is but I am so happy that there a a temple dedicated to a poetess. Anyone who has heard thiruppavai knows how lyrical and beautiful the verse is. The the temple is calm and not commercial. Right outside you find shops selling the palgova. The palgova is awesome and I ate quite a lot of it. In the main market there is a tiny eatery called kathiravan. Their chutneys and dosa is so tasty.
We headed to the saraswati mahal library first as they would close it by 12. The library is the private collection of King.Sarabhoji. He was a Maratha king who ruled over Tanjore. His family still lives in the city. His collection was mind blowing. He had books of all languages and the few dictionaries displayed looked so interesting. I want to just go there sit and read all my life. The biology books there are so beautifully illustrated. There are paintings of Chinese punishment methods, Gods, landscape of cities like chennai, Varanasi, London etc. The library is a book lovers paradise. I write about it and all the books there seem to be calling out for me. Living there and reading the books has become part of my to do list now.
From the library we headed over to the temple. The periya kovil as it is fondly called. The size of the temple makes you to stop in your tracks. The number of people there also catches your attention. The funny part is the place is so huge that even despite the hundreds of devotees you find it empty. The sanctum sanctorum was closed when we went and we spent an hour outside observing the temple and trying to make sense of some of the stories. The dues that people owe the temple are carved along the wall of the temple. I saluted Raja Raja Cholan for his perseverance and devotion in building this work of art.
It is told that the shadow of the gopuram never touches the ground. I am not sure as to how correct that is but when we were there we did not see the gopuram's shadow.
The huge Nandi outside is a monolithic and carved so beautifully. I just close my eyes now and the whole temple comes right in front of me and I feel so humbled by the devotion of people a thousand years ago. A must visit place if you love indian architecture and want to learn more about our history.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
With terrorists around the world killing children and burning teachers, with people sleeping in the roads covered with newspapers, i am lucky to not have faced such violence or poverty yet. I am lucky to have a family. I am lucky to be alive with all my organs in tact. I am lucky to love my job and what I do most of every day.
Whether I see it that way or not, in this world and age, I am blessed. I have to accept that bigger picture first and see my blessings. I am always going to be unhappy if i cannot figure out a way to be happy with what I have. I was earlier conflicted if satisfaction would lead to stagnation. But now, I have come up with a new theory which I will stand behind until I can disprove it.
I am thinking that the need to evolve need not come from just dissatisfaction. In fact I think true growth can only come in when there is happiness and satisfaction and the acceptance that one is capable of much more and will achieve the seemingly impossible. Living in the now and planning for a later can also work. Let me see..
I whisper a silent prayer and hope that I don't become the victim of an error which will be dusted away as a statistical anamoly.
Monday, December 15, 2014
I continue to love my job more everyday!!!
Ambience : The chinese soldiers stationed at the entry stole my heart yet again. There was some unobtrusive music in the background and it was pleasant when there was a lull in the conversation.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
This NGO called Precious Paws takes care of puppies and dogs which have been abandoned or which would have had to live in the streets otherwise. Remember our adventures with the 5 puppies? We had dropped them off in Precious Paws and if the recent pictures are to be believed, they are doing well.
I am so looking forward to the peace and quiet. Maybe, I will finish the romcom I am writing with my dear husband.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Tuesday, December 09, 2014
Monday, December 08, 2014
Thursday, December 04, 2014
I felt so happy and I was reminded of a lot of eatables that have given me joy while growing up. I remember the yummy's my sister used to get it from a shop nearby, the thinly sliced mangoes with chilli and salt, the hot corn cobs boiled with very little lime smeared, boiled groundnuts whose shells i removed and then ate peacefully. All these are just a tip of the iceberg and I am already feeling hungry again. (For some groundnuts actually)
These are actually really small things I used to look forward to at some point of time or the other. I am thankful for these small pleasures and am so glad they make my life better one small bite at a time.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Friday, November 28, 2014
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
They snuggled up to me and I felt better. They walked down with me as I went to grab a glass of hot water and stayed by my side of the bed until I went to sleep. It is so amazing to have two lovely creatures who without speaking a word make you feel way better.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Monday, November 24, 2014
What is the point of it all? I am not saying ambition is bad. But I am wondering as to when the race would stop. When the adrenaline will cease to be the important and when a sense of calm will prevail. I am going to reconsider some priorities because finally i feel that the chase, the thrill is just too monotonous for me.
I walked amid huge trees, saw a tiny water body in the middle of the farm and had fun eating healthy traditional Kannadiga food. Just thinking about the food makes me hungry. I am wondering about the whole point of this rat race I have become a part of. I want to let go of it all and go and live somewhere far away from all forms of electronics for a long long time. Someday, I am sure I will realise that dream. Until then, I am going to try and grow my own vegetables.
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
The mom then told me about a few admission horror stories. My favorite one was about this ridiculous rule in a school which makes me want to slap a law suit on them. The teacher initially refused the application form because the kid was born in November. Then since the mother insisted, she told her that the other criteria of the school are even stricter. The mother of the kid has to be a housewife and the father should earn more than 2 L per month. Pay slips have to be provided. A working mother is acceptable only if she is a doctor or is in a flexible role that allows her either social standing or proven responsibility.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
We went to bannerghatta zoo today. We were not able to do the safari as we reached late but I got to look at most animals. I loved the wolves as they reminded me so much of laika.
While we were closer to the animal kingdom and I got to see so many animals I was also sad as a lot of birds were caged and so many animals were in enclosures while they should be free in the wild.
But considering that were trying to catch a cobra that's near my house right now I'm wondering of well be able to adapt if we have to live closer to animals.
The pics are of the caged and the free snake.
Everyone melts invariably when they hear about somebody following their heart. Even the most cynical person at some corner of their heart appreciates it. But I often wonder as to how do you know what the heart wants. And frankly when reason collides with passion I'm confused. I doubt the passion and then I feel that I'm not passionate enough. I forget about it for a few days and then the battle begins again. Why can't reason and passion meet midway?
Friday, November 14, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Sunday, November 09, 2014
Friday, November 07, 2014
I eat out so frequently now. Any cuisine I think of, I can eat it in any kind of setting. I go around all over the country and I stay in the most wonderful of places. I watch movies in my home theatre or at good movie halls. Still, I am not as thankful as i used to be for what i have and what i get.
I wonder why. Where did i lose gratitude along the way? I want to thank him for all that he has given me and I am surprised that spending a few minutes thanking him doesnt happen every day. I am working on making sure I set aside sometime everyday to be thankful for all my blessings.
We went out to play badminton with that assumption one day last week. The court is pretty close to our house and we can always watch the house from the court, just in case some unsuspecting innocent is chased by the goons who live in our house. Usually, Laika howls to her hearts content when we are in the court We used to take the two along and tie them in a house nearby and play. They would play with each other or just watch us. Until we realised a few folks were uncomfortable with having dogs around and these two were no longer the small pups they were. So, we stopped taking her and she never, ever let us forget that she belonged in the court.
Thursday, November 06, 2014
But lately, I am wondering if i am even interested in making a change because I am so in love with the comforts I have created for myself. Is it wrong to seek comfort? Or is it wrong to keep seeking even if I am not dissatisfied with what I have in hand? I really dont know. Or am I actually seeking only to realise this is going to be as good as it gets because life is multi dimensional and what looks good from one angle need not remain so from others? I dont know and I am wondering right now.
Wednesday, November 05, 2014
I saw this cute pic of a dog in fb. Its caption reads " If you don't like dogs, I don't like you. "
Now I couldn't agree with this. One thing my dogs have taught me is acceptance.
Accept any food and eat it like it'll disappear if you stop.
Accept being made to wait or any discomfort and still jump at joy on seeing the owner.
Accept a dressing down and come back in a bit to unleash love.
Accept a bad mood and try to make it go away with a lick or a tail wag.
Accept any kind of walk and enjoy the wind, the paper that can be salvaged, the bird that's hopping and anything else with equal relish.
The unconditional acceptance makes me want to be a better person and makes me realize every single day that the world looks different for all of us and that its a beautiful place.
If you don't like my dogs, I won't dislike you but I'll feel sorry for what you will miss in life. :D
Sunday, November 02, 2014
Manju warrier is amazing. She is so perfect in the role and I have fallen in love with her perfection. The plot of the movie is simple and though unbelievable in places it's not too overboard. The music is a good dressing and I found it pretty pleasant. The movies got a brilliant cast and everybody including the snide lady who makes the heroines life hell and the in laws, daughter and husband have done a good job.
The larger question the movie poses around when a women's dreams expire is very close to my heart. I've been lucky enough to be able to chase my dreams but I know enough who haven't been able to. Like the woman who's ready to drop everything the moment she hears her daughter cry, like the woman who is looked down by her husband and thought to be not good enough, like the woman who doesn't even know how to dream any more, I know there are enough. Even if just a few start thinking about their dreams after watching this movie, I think it's more than enough. Life changes one day at a time, one person at a time.
Now when dogs play they nip. They don't mean to bite but that's how they play. The pug lady did not see her husband letting the two dogs to play and she came running when she thought her dog was being bitten. She started hitting the poor dog and did not stop even when the owner came to take him away. The owner got beaten too. She justified it later calling it a mothers instinct.
I wasn't around when the incident happened. Someone who saw it told me and asked me to be careful around these guys. Though I stand by my friend, I am actually able to see both sides in this case and I do wish life was less biased. But the truth is everyone has some bias or the other. There are those biased against dogs. There are dog lovers who are scared of big dogs. We can try to be enlighten edge and get over a few of our biases but it's not always going to be easy. We at least have to try.
Saturday, November 01, 2014
Everything I hear, there are traces of negativity
Everything I do, something disturbs me
It's one of those days I try to claim
Then I look up to the sky and see him smile
He tells me how much is in my mind
How clouded is my sight
And how, poisoned my words
There is a god somewhere
Watching over me
And I really want to be the wonderful person
He made me to be.
Neither success nor fame nor all the wealth in the world
Can save someone who sees the negatives
Neither failure nor infamy nor poverty
Will kill a soul that wants to shine
There is a god somewhere who has given me
The right emotions and let me choose
How I react
My dear God I want to be how you wanted me to be
From this moment
From this second
I am going to try.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Sometimes it definitely is
Sometimes it is heart wrenching
Sometimes it is liberating
Sometimes it shows bravery
Sometimes it shows a quitter
Sometimes it shows a visionary
and sometimes a definite fool.
As I consider letting go
Evaluate the ties that bind
Every second seems precious
Every minute irreplaceable
and all the years maybe, futile
I see myself through different eyes
Some judgemental, some accepting,
some basically non committal
and some definitely unforgiving.
I see myself transform
from a quitter to a deserter
to a visionary to a wizard.
and I finally realise
I have to make peace
Millions of possibilities abound
MIllions of paths strewn right in front
Some with variations minor,
Some ground breaking,some revolutionary
I am scared of the perceived failure
The perceived loss of face
The perceived step down
from an illusionary pedestal
Will the fear overwhelm
or will the possibility give courage?
Only time will ever tell.
Only time will ever heal.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
I am sitting and trying to finish something while contemplating about something I did not want to hear but heard anyway. Everything seems either ridiculous or frivolous and I am wondering what is the point of everything and how I am going to cope with myself and what I have to project to the outside world. Then i feel something moist in my hand and a warm nose comes and brushes itself against me. Zoya woke up and came looking for me and I wonder why I even bother about things when there are other things which are far more important like my sleep and all that I have effortlessly.
Things I have worked for and got and some things I did not work too much for and still got. So I just decide to just blog about it and let it be.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
I wonder how people manage without help at home. I know its possible and once you get used to it not so difficult but in the state that I am in, I am not able to think of such a scenario. I have to get out of this dependency.
But yesterday, something weird happened. I am a amateur gardener and I have been trying real hard to grow a few herbs and kari patha in the backyard. My backyard neighbour pulled the herbs from the common boundary fence and threw it into the backyard effectively killing my kari patha. I let it rest but yesterday,they caught sachin who went to the backyard unawares. They were scared of snakes coming into their house from our backyard and they wanted us to remove our bamboos which are more than a year old and the banana tree as well as the non flowering useless creepers. To make it even funnier, the sweet lady mentioned that since we are a working couple we might not have time for all this and gave the number of a gardener who can remove all this. I was out of words to hear this shit. I mean, I don't get how what we do in our house is a cause for concern to anyone. To add the icing to the cake, she asked us to remove the buckets and the rags we put in the backyard as it spoils her view and again since we are not at home, we don't know how difficult it is for them to see such things.
Now, I am forced to take up modifications in my backyard and put up something to cover up our side as I don't want to see them anymore and I feel so uncomfortable going to my own garden. I was planning on removing a bean creepers as it was actually not giving me any veggies. But if I do it now, they'd want me to remove the bamboos and the herbs as well. I am sad.
Friday, October 24, 2014
Even having a sexy Deepika in screen does not do much to counter that. Shahrukh is typical and it is inspiring to note his fitness at his age. Sonu Sood has some scenes riding on his macho shoulders but apart from showing off his abs, he does not do much. In fact, we could have done without a few of his fight scenes and reduced the running time considerably. Boman Irani is a little irritating in places and I wonder why an actor of his calibre is ready to be made into a world class fool. He still does a good job and one ought to admire him for that.