Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Monday, April 28, 2014
Think before you light up. Donate the money you spend on cigarettes to getting yourself something you want - not even to an NGO. Spend that time reconnecting with a parent or a friend. Chew a toffee or write a poem. Get over it.
From the rubber stamp which made me go to BITS to the rubber stamp that gave me elysium (thats the name of our house), life has gone a beautiful circle and I am glad things were the way they were and i did not get that extra 5 marks that would have sent me to a medical college.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
I have been eating out a lot more than usual this weekend and this realization sunk in as I was munching a gobi paratha. I'd have savoured it a lot more as a kid as I wouldn't have gotten it so easily. The Chinese manchurian I'd have had would have been a precious memory to savor. Have we forgotten the importance of gratitude? How do we learn that back again? How can we be truly happy if we are not grateful? And what is the use of life if greed and want are the only things dictating it? I am still thinking and I don't know what to say.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Thursday, April 24, 2014
The interworld series was a minor let down because despite the interesting plot the flow was not great. I loved the concept which spoke of a universe where magic and science are fighting for world domination and a bunch of walkers (interworld) are all that stands between them and the world. I couldn't help rooting for the interesting characters. The war between science and magic is so relatable. After all, reason and emotion can be taken as close parallels which always collide. ( not 100% match but it's close right?) The walkers who can transcend realms who come from similar backgrounds with similar names caught my fancy and I wish I can some day come up with something half as interesting as this. I will definitely read the third part for I need to know the rational ending to this.
I just finished Philip k dick and I am wondering how I missed him for so long. My agenda is to pick up and read all his books over the next month.
The plot follows a famous singer who wakes up forgotten by everybody in a seedy motel room. The story is set in a universe controlled by pols and nats who expect everyone to have an identity. Only rebels and students do not have them ( the students are also rebels ) and when caught they are sent to forced labor camps. Jason is stuck without papers and he tries to make his way around a place where everything is familiar and strange the same time. The characters are beautifully caught and I loved the read.
Am going to read roger zelazny's lord of light and then the famous dragonlance chronicles. I'm excited. :)
I can feel the difference. On such days, earlier, I would have spent some time cribbing or ordering someone around..today, i did not do either and the day turned out so much better.
I guess the attitude and my motivation to be fitter is helping me in more ways than one. Thank you god. Thank you for all that you've given me.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
As soon as the car turned in our lane, I spotted two tails wagging. Laika and Zoya were eagerly waiting for me. Zoya was putting her paw on the grill and welcoming me. That little shy devils welcome made me feel so special and I temporarily forgot my headache. I leashed them and they happily followed me out. They weren't angry with me for forgetting their walk. They were happy with a quick stroll and understood my goodnight. It's official - I am crazy about my dogs! What an unbelievable transformation!
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Today, I went to hoskote and took one of the smaller roads we've never gone in and found a quaint aquarium there. The fishes looked lovely and we walked away with seven of them. I'm hoping I'm luckier in my second stint with fishes. They look lovely. Waiting for this week to give me more things to celebrate about.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
It's so easy to do nothing and so difficult to accomplish something. No wonder all of us prefer taking the easy way out. By not exercising as much as we ought to. By not paying attention to those that deserve it by not bothering about what we eat and of course the chores we ought to do. I have to work and get rid of this vice as much as I can for I am letting it rule me.
Saturday, April 19, 2014
People who live in cities often claim to be civilized.. They say that those in the villages are ignorant and unaware. Let me tell you it's not true. I live right next to a village where dogs and humans coexist. The dogs are all well taken care of and are pretty healthy and happy.
We live in one of those so called gated communities. Yesterday my friend had left her dogs off leash at 12 in the night. A time of day nobody expects sane parents to leave their kids unattended. Her dogs bounded towards laika who was leashed as there were strays around and madam loves to chase them. A mother grabbed her kid and started shouting at my friend. To add insult to injury she sent a dozen security guards to tell them to keep their dogs under control. Which was funny considering the dog was not playing any attention to the kid and there were three huge strays quarreling right outside their house. How civil is it to send so many strangers at midnight to a neighbors house? How civil is it to actually be scared of pets and ignore a pack of strays just because a human is talking to you? How decent is it to let your fear born of ignorance dictate your life and interactions?
I empathize with their fear of dogs. Its natural for someone unused to pets to react that way. Aren't we all scared of the unknown? But what saddens me is their lack of willingness to learn more and their ganging up on someone who is different. I don't like that. It scares me a lot.. I am not very accepting always.. I am the first to admit that but I also acknowledge that being closed minded is only going to make things worse .
I know that my time might also come when they'll gang up on me instead but I refuse to imprison my dog and stop her from running around. I'll continue to take her when there aren't too many people around because she doesn't deserve their hatred and they definitely don't deserve her attention or love. I hate confrontations but if anything civilization dictates that its basic decency to face issues and speak them out rather than constantly harbor fear and hatred.
Friday, April 18, 2014
This evening was magical. All because Vijesh insisted on going to a concert. I got to hear Yanni perform live and it was an experience by itself.
He is a brilliant performer and though the cynical me knew that most of the dialogues were choreographed the music made me forgive the cynic. Such amazingly talented professionals making every moment perfect.. The violinists mary and samvel are my idols now followed by the charming rcb t shirt sporting drummer charlie. His energy levels were mind blowing and the singers have such a melodious voice. Its soothing and lively.
I loved the experience and yanni is very close to the top in my list of favorite musicians.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Today something strange happened. They escaped from their backyard when there was thunder and were running around. I was coincidentally on the phone with their owner asking if they could come for a walk with a recovered Laika when I saw two big dogs and wondered how two strays could be running around so fearlessly. Then realised it was these two. I don't know what got into me. I went out and called those two. They came to me. I asked them to sit and then led them home. They listened to me, ate dinner and slept when I asked them to. I was able to walk these two and that set me thinking. I was so unused to dogs a little more than three months ago and today I was able to manage four. Could I perhaps evaluate becoming a dog behavior counsellor or trainer?
It did not seem impossible. The more I thought about it the more I realised that I'd been thinking about my life in a very narrow way. All because I'd been lucky enough to work in nice places. What if I could be equally good doing something else with a lot less heartache and torture? What if it had just not struck me because I hadn't thought about it? Has getting a good job I love killed the urge to explore in me? I am seriously considering this now and as always Laika has helped me with a lesson about life.
Monday, April 14, 2014
She's a tracker and has already found her way home twice when she was scared by loud noises and ran away from somewhere in the community. I don't know if its just initial euphoria or if it will last but it's very cute and nice now. It's fun to watch her and Laika play and I am able to forget a lot of things and keep looking at that. For someone with five year, ten year and fifteen year plans, picking up a puppy without a plan is a big deal. Will I regret this impulsive decision? I hope not. For now, I can just watch her and Laika and hope things sort themselves out.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
Today I decided to take my mom to my favorite spot in Bangalore. She did not know how my taste has evolved over time. Once it was indi joes, then svensens and now this. A place that brought calm and quiet in my life. Its usually empty on evenings and the traffic is bad.
I found it by accident after I moved into this house. Its the nicest spot in Bangalore for me. Its this lovely nursery called m m floritech from which I buy my plants. Its located in varthur and they've the healthiest and the loveliest plants. Its so calming to walk through their selection and pick up the plants I like. Its beautiful.
Friday, April 11, 2014
The one possible consolation is perhaps the sight of her in an over sized tshirt. She looked like a character out of Hogwarts. I would never demean her by putting her in a tshirt unless absolutely necessary so I guess I should enjoy this look while I can. That is just the part of me wanting to find something nice in this day while i just go crazy watching her lap up milk with so much effort.
I don't know if I'm doing it as it's an inconvenience to me in the long run of because it's good for her. It makes me wonder if I'm being sensible in the first place or if my selfishness is over ruling everything else. Wish me luck dear god so I'm able to move forward.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Tuesday, April 08, 2014
Sadly the answer was yes. My reaction to some situations was just making life worse.. I am angry with small minded people and I forget someday they'll be exposed. The lazy ones will be caught and the most difficult of situations will pass. I am consciously working on controlling my reactions and taking a deep breath before hitting that send button, thinking it through before I express my opinion and slowing down before starting to run from or towards some issues. Good luck to me.
Monday, April 07, 2014
I heard it again, this time louder and I looked out to see a small shape scurry away. My neighbour who lives in the row behind me has a pug and I was wondering if he had escaped. I ran down to get a better look and watched the shape sit - in front of the two other houses in my row with dogs and howl piteously. I was sure scooby wouldn't be so lost and when the light fell I saw a very tiny pup running and crying.
I wanted to pick her up but thought her mom must be around and waited in front of the tv. The howl came from outside my door and the pup was pawing at Laika through the gate. I called my friends who own a couple of labs and who are way better with the tiny pups than me but they were not reachable. My dear husband was woken up and tasked with picking up the pup. It was a she who looked extraordinarily like Laika and madam was not sure how to react. She kept growling when any of us had the pup. Finally we decided to let the small one down and she refused to leave move around much.
Madam was possessive of her water bowl so I picked an old cup and converted it into a bowl for the new comer. She drank the water and refused to eat wet bread or leave Laika. She ran away when the gate opened and a disappointed me went back in. Only to be greeted by howls 5 mins later. The pup wanted the older pup but not the humans. We picked her up and left her with Laika. I know it wasn't the best of ideas but a) Laika is a gentle loving soul and b)I woke up every two hours to check and they got along famously when we weren't around.
We got her dewormed today. I am not sure if well keep Zoya with us or give her away but for now she is going to be brought up well and vaccinated and loved until we find her a better place. She reminded me that magic does exist and even on the bleakest days something unexpected and beautiful happens. Why did I have to be awake? Why did I hear her? Why did she come here when she came? How did she manage to get into a gated community when she's hardly 40 days old ? How did Laika tolerate her? I don't know. I believe that HE sent her to me for a purpose and I am going to wait for him to show me the way..
However the way she reacted to it made me dislike the book. Plus after the first few pages it was full of stereotypes. I don't understand most writers interest in tam Brahms. Talking about chain smoking chicken eating tambrahms gets boring after a bit.add to that working women who can't cook like its such a big deal to put a meal together.. I do it every day and I work and it's not that big a deal. Please..
The heroine is perhaps the most immature confused person I have met in a long time. She leaves her job on an impulse, joins a gym she never goes to, doesn't have any culinary skills and tries to become a make up lady in a mall. Funnily she pays more attention to her MBA friends than to her own husband. Who can be a better confidant than a spouse?
I would give the book three stars as the writing was good. Her language is pleasing and there is no expected extra marital affair in the book. The ending is another dampener but it's a pretty ok read.
Sunday, April 06, 2014
I have never been someone to set much by appearances. I'd never know if someone styled their hair different or wore a new perfume or wore more make up. My brains been programmed to ignore these things. I don't use any beauty products either as even a moisturizer makes me sweat and this boil in my eye scares me away from kajal.
Lately though I've come to realize that good health and skin comes at a price and with a lot of things visibly going wrong with me, I'm looking at using natural remedies. Hibiscus, roses from my garden and sandal are working their magic on me and I'm so glad I'm taking time out for myself. I doubt I'll ever Starr using creams but I can clearly see the day I'll grow more herbs for myself.
Friday, April 04, 2014
Sometimes in life we wake up to harsh realities. We are woken up rather by seemingly minor things and despite wanting to there is no going back.
What do we do when our idols are shown to be merely human? Do we just move on like nothing happened ? Do we seek and find others we can look up to? Or do we actually make peace with it and look inward and become the idol we seek?
I have done all three at different points in time and today yet again I watch an idol lose face. I think this time around I'll just move on like nothing happened. Nothing else seems to help me make sense of life or make peace with it.
Thursday, April 03, 2014
Wednesday, April 02, 2014
You know there is this wound in your body. Something you have ignored for a long time and then one fine night you revisit it and start poking it. It is already healing but you cannot let it be. You keep poking it until it starts bleeding. Then you wonder why you even went near it in the first place when you could have very well existed ignoring it and now you cant even let go because its left such a bad aftertaste in your mouth.
Sigh. What is wrong with the world. Why do we encourage script writers to come up with such tamil movie endings?!