Saturday, November 29, 2014
Friday, November 28, 2014
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
They snuggled up to me and I felt better. They walked down with me as I went to grab a glass of hot water and stayed by my side of the bed until I went to sleep. It is so amazing to have two lovely creatures who without speaking a word make you feel way better.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Monday, November 24, 2014
What is the point of it all? I am not saying ambition is bad. But I am wondering as to when the race would stop. When the adrenaline will cease to be the important and when a sense of calm will prevail. I am going to reconsider some priorities because finally i feel that the chase, the thrill is just too monotonous for me.
I walked amid huge trees, saw a tiny water body in the middle of the farm and had fun eating healthy traditional Kannadiga food. Just thinking about the food makes me hungry. I am wondering about the whole point of this rat race I have become a part of. I want to let go of it all and go and live somewhere far away from all forms of electronics for a long long time. Someday, I am sure I will realise that dream. Until then, I am going to try and grow my own vegetables.
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
The mom then told me about a few admission horror stories. My favorite one was about this ridiculous rule in a school which makes me want to slap a law suit on them. The teacher initially refused the application form because the kid was born in November. Then since the mother insisted, she told her that the other criteria of the school are even stricter. The mother of the kid has to be a housewife and the father should earn more than 2 L per month. Pay slips have to be provided. A working mother is acceptable only if she is a doctor or is in a flexible role that allows her either social standing or proven responsibility.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
We went to bannerghatta zoo today. We were not able to do the safari as we reached late but I got to look at most animals. I loved the wolves as they reminded me so much of laika.
While we were closer to the animal kingdom and I got to see so many animals I was also sad as a lot of birds were caged and so many animals were in enclosures while they should be free in the wild.
But considering that were trying to catch a cobra that's near my house right now I'm wondering of well be able to adapt if we have to live closer to animals.
The pics are of the caged and the free snake.
Everyone melts invariably when they hear about somebody following their heart. Even the most cynical person at some corner of their heart appreciates it. But I often wonder as to how do you know what the heart wants. And frankly when reason collides with passion I'm confused. I doubt the passion and then I feel that I'm not passionate enough. I forget about it for a few days and then the battle begins again. Why can't reason and passion meet midway?
Friday, November 14, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Sunday, November 09, 2014
Friday, November 07, 2014
I eat out so frequently now. Any cuisine I think of, I can eat it in any kind of setting. I go around all over the country and I stay in the most wonderful of places. I watch movies in my home theatre or at good movie halls. Still, I am not as thankful as i used to be for what i have and what i get.
I wonder why. Where did i lose gratitude along the way? I want to thank him for all that he has given me and I am surprised that spending a few minutes thanking him doesnt happen every day. I am working on making sure I set aside sometime everyday to be thankful for all my blessings.
We went out to play badminton with that assumption one day last week. The court is pretty close to our house and we can always watch the house from the court, just in case some unsuspecting innocent is chased by the goons who live in our house. Usually, Laika howls to her hearts content when we are in the court We used to take the two along and tie them in a house nearby and play. They would play with each other or just watch us. Until we realised a few folks were uncomfortable with having dogs around and these two were no longer the small pups they were. So, we stopped taking her and she never, ever let us forget that she belonged in the court.
Thursday, November 06, 2014
But lately, I am wondering if i am even interested in making a change because I am so in love with the comforts I have created for myself. Is it wrong to seek comfort? Or is it wrong to keep seeking even if I am not dissatisfied with what I have in hand? I really dont know. Or am I actually seeking only to realise this is going to be as good as it gets because life is multi dimensional and what looks good from one angle need not remain so from others? I dont know and I am wondering right now.
Wednesday, November 05, 2014
I saw this cute pic of a dog in fb. Its caption reads " If you don't like dogs, I don't like you. "
Now I couldn't agree with this. One thing my dogs have taught me is acceptance.
Accept any food and eat it like it'll disappear if you stop.
Accept being made to wait or any discomfort and still jump at joy on seeing the owner.
Accept a dressing down and come back in a bit to unleash love.
Accept a bad mood and try to make it go away with a lick or a tail wag.
Accept any kind of walk and enjoy the wind, the paper that can be salvaged, the bird that's hopping and anything else with equal relish.
The unconditional acceptance makes me want to be a better person and makes me realize every single day that the world looks different for all of us and that its a beautiful place.
If you don't like my dogs, I won't dislike you but I'll feel sorry for what you will miss in life. :D
Sunday, November 02, 2014
Manju warrier is amazing. She is so perfect in the role and I have fallen in love with her perfection. The plot of the movie is simple and though unbelievable in places it's not too overboard. The music is a good dressing and I found it pretty pleasant. The movies got a brilliant cast and everybody including the snide lady who makes the heroines life hell and the in laws, daughter and husband have done a good job.
The larger question the movie poses around when a women's dreams expire is very close to my heart. I've been lucky enough to be able to chase my dreams but I know enough who haven't been able to. Like the woman who's ready to drop everything the moment she hears her daughter cry, like the woman who is looked down by her husband and thought to be not good enough, like the woman who doesn't even know how to dream any more, I know there are enough. Even if just a few start thinking about their dreams after watching this movie, I think it's more than enough. Life changes one day at a time, one person at a time.
Now when dogs play they nip. They don't mean to bite but that's how they play. The pug lady did not see her husband letting the two dogs to play and she came running when she thought her dog was being bitten. She started hitting the poor dog and did not stop even when the owner came to take him away. The owner got beaten too. She justified it later calling it a mothers instinct.
I wasn't around when the incident happened. Someone who saw it told me and asked me to be careful around these guys. Though I stand by my friend, I am actually able to see both sides in this case and I do wish life was less biased. But the truth is everyone has some bias or the other. There are those biased against dogs. There are dog lovers who are scared of big dogs. We can try to be enlighten edge and get over a few of our biases but it's not always going to be easy. We at least have to try.
Saturday, November 01, 2014
Everything I hear, there are traces of negativity
Everything I do, something disturbs me
It's one of those days I try to claim
Then I look up to the sky and see him smile
He tells me how much is in my mind
How clouded is my sight
And how, poisoned my words
There is a god somewhere
Watching over me
And I really want to be the wonderful person
He made me to be.
Neither success nor fame nor all the wealth in the world
Can save someone who sees the negatives
Neither failure nor infamy nor poverty
Will kill a soul that wants to shine
There is a god somewhere who has given me
The right emotions and let me choose
How I react
My dear God I want to be how you wanted me to be
From this moment
From this second
I am going to try.