Friday, October 30, 2015

Hope

A couple of years ago, I used to keep telling my friend that I was going to get a dog that would bite people I don't like. We had no plans of getting a pet then..

Through a series of fortunate accidents I got a gunda and then another partner in crime for her. These incidents remind me that everything happens for a reason. Every time I wonder why things are going awry, I will remember this and be happy..

Practice

Maybe it's the navrathri spirit, or all the music I've been listening to, but I'm practicing singing often nowadays. Really not sure if it's going to continue, but for now, it sure is liberating to sing out loud... :)

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Forgiveness

Forgiveness was never my strong suite. I'm known for being angry and just shutting a few people out for months or even years. But recently I've accepted that anger doesn't really help with anything. It just puts you in an endless loop that doesn't let you progress and inevitably leaves a very bad taste behind.

That acceptance had opened my eyes and my mind. I've undertaken a journey whose destination I know not. Let me see how it goes..

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Smell the roses

Something which greeted me a few days ago and I was so delighted then. A reminder for me to stop and smell the roses once in a while.

Art for Arts sake

A philosophical series of questions, not exactly looking for an answer here.

Should art be for arts sake? Not for some other higher purpose? Is the purpose of the art that it inspires you to look beyond?

Lets say somebody is dependent on you for a living. can you then continue with creating art for art's sake without caring about your family?

Or let us say you are hired for a design firm where your seniors preferences are very different from yours. What do you do then?

Where does the line between integrity and income come in? What is wrong with doing things just to make something out of them? Is it such a bad thing at the end of the day? Why do we make villains out of those that focus on commerce?

Monday, October 26, 2015

Dreams that come true

Today, I was woken out of a deep sleep by a very strange dream. I dreamt that I was running behind someone trying to make friends with a huge black hairy dog. It was a very big dog and I wanted to know what it was and whether it was friendly. I started cycling furiously towards the dog and then I see two other dogs I have never seen anywhere near where I live walking down the road.
I don't catch up with them and I woke up disappointed.
This morning when I was walking these two,I ran into a new dog and made friends with her. She was a gorgeous over active daschund and I was so happy that the dream had such a great real ending.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

The full golu

On the day I remove my golu, a snapshot of the same. It has been a wonderful ten days and we've had so many visitors. I realized I have a social side and that I love interacting with a few people. I'm seriously considering a career path of a katha lady. Now I'm being called story aunty by a few kids. Interesting..

Nameless faces

I was watching the crowd milling in a mall today. Everyone with their dreams, hopes and interests.. Everyone hoping to find a piece of joy by spending something and interacting with one card or c the other. Each so different and all just the same.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

The third step

My third step in the golu has the ten avatars of Vishnu. These avatars are supposed to follow the order of evolution. Matsya, the fish, kurma - the tortoise, Varaha- the boar,  Narasimha-half man half lion, Vamana- the dwarf, Parasurama-the angry man, Rama- the ideal man, Balarama- the strong man, Krishna-the man suited for the current world and kalki-the man on the horse.

Behind the avatars is the Vishwaroopam of the vamana avatar. I love the face of this idol.
I have ranganatha sleeping on adisesha and the famous scene from ramayana where hanuman sits at a height higher than ravana. I love the whole aura of the scene.

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Highlights and footnotes

I got my relieving letter from my previous organization today and when I saw it in my inbox, I felt the last few ties being severed. It was a mixed feeling. Relief as I can submit the document here and a slight sorrow that a relationship which dictated a big part of my life could be summarized in a single page.

Perhaps life is all about making the big things of a point in time a footnote and looking for new things to define who you are at all stages. School was a big deal for me. I do have a lot of pleasant memories but it is not something that takes a center stage now. Getting into my college was a dream that came true, again an almost foot note now. The list can go on.

I loved what I did and while a piece of me still holds on to the memories, the ties have been severed now and I am floating around in the ocean of life, looking for something else to moor to.

My life is a boat in an ocean that can weather storms, change the facade, watch the fun, participate in changes around. It will be affected by it all, but the course can never be predicted, for there are too many factors playing a role.

Bad attitude

I have been raving about the changes in my life. I can safely say, I am almost used to my new routine and in fact, enjoying some aspects of it.

There is one thing that takes time getting used to, and that is bad attitude. Due to a few unavoidable reasons, I seem to have gotten off on a wrong footing/ created a wrong impression with a few folks and the attitude just maddens me to say the least.

Take the case of this driver we had last month. He came late one day and rather than blast him like my sister did, I took him with me to office though I did not need a driver. We gave him a few days off as we wanted him to enjoy the long weekend and drove ourselves around. The monday after the long weekend, he did not show up. Someone else picked up his phone and spoke nonsense.
No call, no message, nothing for three days. We had to follow up with him constantly and finally he said that he cannot come and gave no reason. We knew he had no other income, but he was still cheeky.

Last week, he was grinning at me when we were walking the dogs in the evening. He had been employed to drive a tempo by someone. Laika growled at him and I was delighted with her.

Then, there was this person who was working on the grill for our house. He finished 90% of the job and then left it incomplete and disappeared. Funny thing about him, he did not collect the money that was due to him. :) He finally came a month later, finished everything and collected money. He was too over worked to complete his commitments, so he was just unprofessional, not an ass.

Even a few non blue collar folks I know seem to have a pathetic attitude towards work and are very unprofessional, but for fear that they might some day read this blog, I dont want to talk about them.

I have accepted that my tolerance for bull shit is low and that I still need to be polite as sometimes speaking your mind doesnt get the job done and my focus is just that - get things done. Perhaps some day I will become more self sufficient. :)

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

The second step

This is my second step. I wanted the eight lakshmis on the first step, but I didn't have enough space.

Legend says there are eight Lakshmis. One for each kind of wealth. They are:
1. Adi Lakshmi for beginnings
2. Dhana Lakshmi for money
3. Dhanya Lakshmi for food
4. Gaja Lakshmi for animals
5. Santana Lakshmi for children
6. Vijaya Lakshmi for victory
7. Vidhya Lakshmi for education
8. Veera Lakshmi for bravery

I love it that women represent these kinds of wealth and the faces of the dolls are so beautiful.

The other set is that of Lakshmi Hayagriva, one of the lesser known avatars of Vishnu. He is known for providing knowledge. This is one of my oldest sets and I love sharing the story with everyone who isn't familiar with it.

Monday, October 19, 2015

The first step

This is the first step of my golu. It's a predominantly woman power theme. Right in the center is mahishasuramardini flanked on both sides by Lakshmi and Saraswati. Next to them in Andal, the only female alwar( vaishnavite saint poet. There are 9 in total). In the corner is Krishna with a parrot. My sources tell me that he teaches the parrot to say 'de ra' which becomes Radhe when repeated and she rushes to meet him.

The marapachi dolls representing Krishnadevaraya and his wife are in their rightful place at the very first step. It was during the reign of this king that the tradition of arranging dolls began. I love these two dolls I have as they look very royal.

I'm the other corner is an image of Vishnu in paarkadal. I'm still researching suka maharishi(the man with the parrot face)

I feel so happy during navrathri as I learn a lot of mythological stories that I share with people who come home. It's such a wonderful occasion to socialize as well.

Light-er

I am one of those exceptions who gained weight eating mess food in college. I gained 6kg in the first semester, which I never lost. I added on to the bulk over a period of time and soon, I got so used to my weight that I forgot how I used to be.

After being careful about food for the last 10 months (of course I am indulging once in a while, but  not like how I used to be), I am now in my pre-college weight range. I am not sick or looking weird because all of this is due to healthy eating and light exercise.

I am so delighted to be lighter and I hope my resolve to put my health at the forefront continues to be as strong as it is right now.

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Garuda sevai

This is one c of my favorite sets from navrathri golu. The garuda sevai of lord balaji from tirupati. Watch the faces of the dolls, then the various characters that have been made. Nobody seems to be forgotten. I picked it up in Madurai. Beautiful right?

Friday, October 16, 2015

Global village

Yesterday, I had an opportunity to travel to Mumbai for work. It was one of my first visits to an Indian customer and I was a little apprehensive. It was a one day trip and I understood different aspects of my personality I did not know about earlier. That is another story I dont want to write about in my blog.

But what I want to talk about is how business travelers are becoming an increasing segment in India. There are folks who fly in to a city in the morning and fly out by noon. While coming back, I was sitting next to a guy, who goes to Mumbai for work but actually lives in Bangalore. I was stunned to hear that to say the least.

Then I got to know about this couple who alternatively live in the US and India. They spend 2 weeks in the US and 2 in India! Some things which are beyond my comprehension came up and I wondered if the world is but a tiny village. Technology has enabled us to function from any where in the world. The idea that being tied to one place is not essential has gotten me thinking about what else could be possible. I got to know of a family whose kids study in the US and one of the parents stay there with them alternatively while the other globe trots.

The funny part was, after the initial surprise, I could actually imagine myself leading such a life. Now I am including a helipad in my farm house plan. I can fly in and out of anywhere. :)

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

My favorite time of the year

Navrathri is here and I am oh so happy with life. My golu is up, my immediate neighbors have been invited, return gifts are in place and life is awesome again.

I am going to be putting up quite a few posts on my blog about my golu, so the world can see what I am upto.

I am looking forward to a few evenings of coffee and chats. I hope it goes as well as I want it to..

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Safety

A recent incident has made me wonder how safe we actually are. It takes just a matter of seconds for things to change from bad to worse. Your life can change thanks to the split of the minute decisions of someone else and not just you. Your family, your friends, all of them can be impacted. You can't even guess the outcome and are helpless and lost in such situations.
On a positive note, it takes just the same time for things to become better and like in our case, the sun can come out from behind the clouds in minutes and drive all the darkness away!!

Thursday, October 08, 2015

My slice of heaven

I didn't have to try too hard to find it. It was right in front of me.

Temptation

When I started with my famous naturopathy diet, I was working from home. Also, when I maintained it, I was. Avoiding temptation was as simple as not buying snacks and eating something homemade whenever i was hungry.

Now that I have started a new job, things are not so easy. The fact that I get free food in office and coupons for things which arent free makes it even more difficult. My current temptation is a small cup of sugarless horlicks. I used to drink quite a lot of milk in March/April. I wanted to be healthy.

Only in June did I learn that milk can aggravate a skin condition I have and I completely stopped it. Now after 4 months of avoiding dairy products, I want to drink this tiny glass of milk. I have had it three days in a row now. :(

This is just the starting point as I feel the temptation to munch on all the stuff that is not at all good for me. Long term or short term. I get compliments about how I look now and how much weight I have lost. I keep replaying that in my head and try to avoid the food. Dont think that I am starving myself. This is far from it. This is about avoiding junk, which has become mainstream food now in this time and place.

They say that the first step to overcoming any addiction is acceptance. Right now, I am accepting that I have a problem and sooner than later if i continue like this, I am going to be back to shaking my head and watching snowflakes fall all around me from my head.

God, please give me the strength to get over this. 

Wednesday, October 07, 2015

What made my day

So, outer ring road was awesome today. It took 30 mins to cross 2km. Somehow I was not complaining as usual as I saw a sight that made my day.
There was a car in front of us, with 5 people and a dog. The doggy was sleeping in the dash. I couldn't take a picture, but it was too cute to forget. I love this life.

Blog Silence

I have been deathly silent in the blog for some time now. There have been a lot of changes in my life and I am still getting used to it. Change is good and getting out of my comfort zone has worked for me. I have to bake writing back into my routine, but that should happen sooner than later.

I am excited about the possibilities that life has to offer and surprised to see how much I have evolved. I am happy to wake up and be ready by 730. That is something I am still getting my head around. I am glad for the time I get to walk my doggies and spend with my family. Life is beautiful again. :)