I have a strange problem - which is as much a blessing as it is a curse. I cannot function without logic after a certain point. I try to rationalize every damn thing and after a point, that rationalizing becomes such a curse because emotions are not rational.
Logically, you know something is not good for you, but you cannot let it go because emotionally that just has you under its thrall. Logically, you know something is good for you, but you cannot seek it out, because emotionally, you are attached to what you have as of that point in time.
Right now, I have seen a logical end and emotions are playing catch up and in a way, I am a complete mess. I have to get my life back in order and then, just move on. I know I can, I know I will, but I dont know if everything will ever even be as good.
What if this is as good as it gets? Can I ever live with knowing that letting go of something that was good because of a few fundamental issues was the right thing to do?