A few things happened in unison today
1. My French class - I have been attempting to learn French for almost a month now. I used to love the language in school and i am rediscovering my love for it again.
So, as part of the course, I was revising a few sentences when this line came up - "Ils deviennent des hommes" - it translates to "they become men". (In a way I was annoyed as there was no sentence about women. I would have liked to write that translation.) It felt so powerful. This transition from one state to another. It is always gradual, so the become makes sense and it is usually painful so I wondered where the pain went. Is it inherently understood?
2. I was chatting with a friend of mine from college. We had not been in touch (I am not really that good at keeping in touch. Have a slight problem there) and when we started talking, I started rambling like it was just last week that we spoke.
Given all this, I was reminded of the place where I started growing up to be this woman I am now. BITS - Pilani.
To say that I loved the place would probably be an understatement. It was the first place I felt that i truly belonged in. (I sucked at making friends in school and really learnt to socialize much better in college)
I always felt at home there and also met my best friends there. It changed me for the better. (Well, not enough, but growing up is a lifelong process, so i am going to be nice to myself now)
I never thought I would forget the time spent there.I had all this plans about going back to campus to recruit. (I also had plans to retire from my first company, but that is a story for another day)
I was reminded of my last view of the gate when I left. I was in tears then. (I didnt want to turn back time though. I wanted to start working) An era over. A life so long ago. I have changed and I am still the same. I would like to think that i have hopefully become a little nicer and a lot more mature after making the same mistake in various forms again and again.
I was so caught up in my present, that i never truly had time to pause and ponder about the past. Today, I took sometime off. To remember that naive and silly girl who was convinced she knew it all (who still thinks so. :) ) and to remember that place where I learnt that I was ok on my own and reconnected with the poet in me.
BITS - Pilani - I will always love you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for everyone. The future can wait for a few more hours as I sit and remember a glorious past.