Sometimes, you get what you want after some time of wanting it. But then, there is this bittersweet feeling when you get your hands on it. it is like giving away clothes you wore - you know its not the right fit any more, but you remember the good times. Not when it did not fit and was causing you a lot of discomfort. You remember that dinner you went to and looked gorgeous in.
Photographs don't make it any easier. You look at a pic and it is a composed version of your life. What you want others to see and what you want to remember. Not what was. The places the fabric tore into your skin will never show up in a picture. I wish technology can evolve and capture the mood of people as well in a photograph. I would be eternally grateful.